First of all, a little fundraising update… As you can see by the bar above, I am over 2/3 of the way funded!!! Wow. I have been continuously blessed by everyone supporting me in this journey. So THANK YOU to everyone who has donated, prayed, and encouraged me so far! I have no doubt I will be fully funded by launch in just 6 short months!!
As I have begun preparing to leave, the reality of it all has begun to set in. I really am leaving everything I have known for the past 21 years to travel the word and share the good news of Christ. This has been a dream for the past 3 years and it is finally coming true. What a crazy year it will be, and I could not be more excited!
As it becomes more real, I can’t help but think of how underqualified I am to fulfill this task that is set before me. I get scared. I can be disobedient and ignore that still small voice when it is inconvenient for me. I’m selfish. I often times don’t feel “religious enough” to be in this position. However, this is not the first time I have felt this. Around this time last year I was preparing to take up a Discipleship Administrator position for my dorm. Basically I would oversee the spiritual life of the dorm, and I felt so very inadequate to fulfill this position. I was no Bible major and had certainly never organized chapel services before. But, as I released the control over to God, He did such incredible things through me. In fact, since I knew good things would only be accomplished if it was God working through me, I was able to see His amazing power even more.
I know this will continue to happen as I answer this call as well. While I don’t completely know what I’m doing, I can see God preparing my heart now. We are called to be vessels through which the light of Christ can shine. So even though I feel underqualified, I know that if I continue to be willing to do the Lord’s work, He will shine through me.
I was reading yesterday in Colossians and came across this passage:
“And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and giving joyful thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of his holy people in the kingdom of light.” (1:10-12)
We are qualified only through the Lord. When we realize this, we are able to see that on our own we can only accomplish small feats. But with Him on our side, incredible things will abound. I find comfort and hope in this promise. I am not alone on this journey! I know God is going to do amazing, incredible, miraculous things and to say I’m thrilled is an understatement!!!
