This fall, when I started my freshman year at Colorado State University, I was finally beginning to truly pursue the Lord and was learning what it looked like to make my faith my own. While I felt like I was fully following Jesus, I was still holding on so tightly to a career and life plan that I had chosen for myself.
Towards the end of the fall semester, I began questioning. I began earnestly seeking for answers about who I am and who the Lord is. During this time, the Lord showed up in some crazy and beautiful ways. He revealed that it does not matter what career I have or where I live, as long as I am pursuing him each and every day.
The next few months were a tug of war between Jesus and I. I felt him calling me to truly lay it all down; my life, my plans, my heart. At first, I completely ignored this call, but as time went by, the Lord continued to mold and shape my heart. After a few months of spiritually wrestling with Jesus, I finally answered YES to his call! This lead to me applying for the World Race. After getting the call that I had been accepted, I first I felt unsure and anxious, but over time I began feeling true peace and excitement wash over me.
So, I am going on the World Race!! I am going to Ecuador, Peru, Guatemala, and Cambodia over the course of 9 months in September!!! And while I still experience the nagging voice in the back of my head reminding me of my fears, doubts, and questions, the Lord continues shaping my heart and washing over me with his wonderful grace, peace, and love. I am so excited to see how the Lord uses me, so that I might be able to reflect just a glimpse of his love!
