GOD…BE…NOT…FAR
Love is patient.
Wait, Wait, Wait.
I think about the times that I didn’t wait…and I think about the times I did…waiting for all sorts of things…all sorts of reasons.
I’m thankful for the times God said No and I’m thankful for the times God said Yes as I was already leaping into His arms.
And for the times I just wasn’t sure what it was I was waiting for or for whom…waiting in the silence…waiting for the day to dawn …and newness …for hope to begin….so I might breathe again.
What is the value of waiting…for anything?
Wouldn’t waiting for things mean less if we never had to wait for anything or anyone?
What’s the value of heartache if my heart never hurts or aches for things that You desire for me or your world?
For His timing
Letting go
Giving up
Being freed
Becoming more like Him
I want You to be near…but far enough so that when I sin you might not notice. Ridiculous.
You are holy…and I wish I was not so foul with sin…even though I know I’m covered in your love and blood that was spilled so freely…gushing forth…reaching out…bidding me to die with you.
I’d prefer you were a Santa Claus Jesus at times…because that would be easy….what does easy look like? Certainly nothing I’ve ever experienced.
I’m thankful you are exactly how You are… and you know what needs I have… because you designed a world…a me…an existance…you have me in a place where there are needs and wants so that I can remember what spending eternity might be like with you….where all those needs and wants won’t be needed…to just…BE…with YOU.
You shatter my world at times when I forget that you are so near…and I don’t realize that without You and your protection and provision…my shatteredness could have been much, much worse…so that I can remember what it feels like for you to hold me as I sob….over Big things and little things…all of which concern you…and remind me just how much I need you and want you and love you.
I’m not sure any of this post makes sense really…but it was something welling up within me as the knowledge of a friend who lost their brother came to mind….because sometimes there just aren’t words.
GOD…BE…NOT…FAR
