The gear has been bought. Bags are packed. The parties are over and the goodbyes have been said.
I have abandoned everything from what I know besides the things I could squeeze into my 70 Liter pack.
Up until this point this trip has been nothing but talk. Talk of a great adventure.
But now here I am, sitting an airport waiting for the flight. The flight that will begin the first day of the rest of my life. The flight that leads to uncertainty. I am so unsure of what is to come in the next eleven months. But I have never been so sure of doing anything in my entire life.
I surrender. I surrender the ways of my old life. I have stepped into a freedom I have never known before. I am not defined by my past, but without it I wouldn't be the person I am today. But this isn't about me. Not anymore.
There is an army rising up. An army for change, for justice, for love. An army that, with God, can do the unthinkable.
I am ready to guide the lost, heal the hurt and love the broken. Not just because I want to, but because I am called to.
And even though this blog is scatterbrained, and kind of unorganized….one of you reading this gets it. One of you reading this wants the same. Is called to do the same. And you think there is a voice saying, "Go". And all you have to do is say, "Okay". But your scared. You feel unworthy. You feel incompetent.
Take it from someone who thought and believed those same things, it's not truth.
The truth is you are able. YOU are worthy, and YOU are more than competent. Don't let believe the lies that have been fed to you. Because you can do great things.
So future racer: Don't hold back.
Love.
Live your life not for yourself. Because you know it is what you are being called to do.
We are waiting for you to join the army. And when you do, don't be surprised when things just start making sense.
God loves you. I love you.
