Training Camp
Where do I even begin?
Training camp has been this mystical thing for the longest time. No one talks about it. I remember before I left I would ask alumni racers what training camp was like and they would all tell me either to find out for myself or they would say that they weren’t supposed to talk about it. One thing I was told was to have no expectations. It was hard to not imagine what it would be like, what I would experience, how I would be when I would leave. But I pushed all of those thoughts from my mind and God has changed my heart throughout this past week more than I could ever have imagined.
I now understand why what really goes on at training camp is kept a secret. Everyone’s experience is different. Comparing my experience to someone else’s isn’t fair to myself and if I had put my expectations into a box it might limit the growth of my relationship with Christ. I will say this it was one of the most challenging weeks of my life. It was exhausting. I was pushed out of my comfort zone. There were many times when I wanted to go home, cuddle up on the couch and watch Seinfeld re-runs.
But going through training camp, going through all of physically and mentally exhausting days prepared me for the destiny that God has in store for my life. For all future racers, I promise training camp will not kill you. Push through all of the insecurities and doubts that the enemy might place in your mind. Let go of expectations, accept the unknown, go into it with an open mind and an open heart.
I went in feeling inadequate in my faith, inexperienced and not good enough to do mission work in God’s name.
I left confident in knowing that I am messed up, I am broken, I am imperfect and God can still use me through all of those things.
During training camp my squad found out that we will be leaving the country on July 3rd. Thank you to all of those who have supported me and thank you for all the love that everyone has shown to me. Now that I am back to blogging I will be giving updates more frequently. My new route is in the middle of some changes right now but the countries I think that I will be going to include; Albania, Bulgaria, Romania, South Africa, Swaziland, Botswana, India, Nepal, Mongolia, and China. I don’t know which county I will be in first but I can’t wait to start this amazing journey.
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“The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; A broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise.”
Psalm 51:17
