last night i watched cinderella and sleeping beauty, if i would have had tangled i would have been one happy girl!! but it made me think…do i have to be a servant, grow my hair out, or sleep for a long time[which sounds good to me:)] to find that prince charming?
im on an all girls team..and our girl talk is full of marriage, baby names, and Mr. Right-when we all sit down to talk its like a 5th grade slumber party..but we talk about what we want in a man of god…how we can woman of god for them…and how me know that though it seems like forever the lord will send them in just the right timing..
i pray for my husband everyday..my level of expectancy to meet him gets higher and higher..but i constantly ask myself am i doing this for the good of him or the good of me…i want be the woman of god he needs..and on this race ive learned to turn my attention from where he is and what he is doing to how god is shaping me and teaching me who i need to be..the lord is changing my focus.
i want to become content with being single..truly happy where i am right now..and though it may be 7 months or 7 years before i meet my husband..im going to be ok..im going to be content, im going to love the people around me, and im not going to sit, wait, and waste my time left being single..
a couple of days ago heather & i wrote list of things we want to do before we are married..not necessarily a check list of "when this is done;ill get married" but a list of things that are just better if your single…my list consist of finishing a quilt with my mom, helping my sister publish a devotional, making something for my future home with my daddy, taking a dance class, taking a girls weekend trip, finishing school..you get the point..but i want to live my life to the fullest..everyday-live it like my last..and i know when i get home in 6 months..i will be surrounded by weddings and engagments; but it wont bother me..it wont make me question where my man is..because ive learned that its on Gods timing..and when i least expect it..he will bring him!
so this valentines day..i want to focus loving the people around me..the people of cambodia, heather (my teammate), and team wellspring (the team im staying with in Siem Reap until my leg is better)..ive been given a choice…to either sit and grumble about my injury or learn how to love..and if lil wayne can write a song about "how to love"..im sure the Lord can write my love story-and teach me "how to love"
xoxo,ericaleighfloyd
