everytime i sit to write a blog…
i think to myself what is going to sound the best?
what is going to make people want to read this blog??
&& i often wonder if i should just make stuff up so that people would want to follow my journey,
but that would not be putting my heart on paper
and being vulnerable in front of everyone who follows my blog
and thats not fair to my readers, God, or myself.
so here is a little piece of my heart…
Honduras has been an amazing month- but it has also been a very difficult month!
i want so badly to sit here and tell you about a deaf man hearing for the first time in his whole life
or a blind child seeing for the first time in 12 years
but this month God showed up in different ways
he showed up in my tent
when it was just me and him
&& no one was around to see what was happening
this month has been heart surgery for me…
ive struggled with being humbled before the lord and being thankful for things
the lies of the enemy have been a constant battle this month
but i know that the truth that my heavenly daddy gives me cancels those lies…
i have always compared myself to other people
& struggled with a low self-confidence
so this month that has been my top struggle
this squad is full of wonderful,intelligent, god-loving women and men
and it has been so easy to distant myself away from some people because i compare myself to them
and i have had to change my mindset
God has blessed me with so many God fearing people on this squad
&& i need to take it as a blessing and learn different things from different people and let them learn from me…
there were many times this month when i've layed in my tent and cried out to God
though i have felt like i haven't heard his voice
&& that im in a spiritual desert
im learning to learn from my circumstances
what i think are problems are really oppurtunities to grow…
i have always seeked confirmation and affirmation from other people
&& im learning how to get affirmation and confirmatiion from God first and foremost
it isn't just conincidence that ive been lonely this month
it was on purpose
so that i could learn to allow God to be my well
when i pour into other people's lives
i look for different avenues to get what i gave back
&& all i have to do is go to God
allow him to fill me back up with
love
life
and abundance
in every place im lacking..
Who God is to Erica is becoming more evident EVERYDAY!
and learning who i am through the hardships
and struggles
but im growing more confident
in God
and in the woman he has called me to be
thank you for following my journey-for being apart of a movement-for allowing God to be shared across the world
pray for my team
for my squad
for my contact Tony & his family
for Nicaragua
for my squad leaders
for my family back home
for the children
for the families
for the people
of Honduras
<3
