though it may not be obvious..its very hard for me to blog..
i want to always seem happy and upbeat and SO excited about the world race..
dont get me wrong!
my heart is overwhelmed by the love my heavenly daddy has showed me
&& i know that this journey i'm about to be apart of is what he has called me to do for this moment and time..
but i want to be honest..
thats what these blogs need to be about..
yall seeing the GOOD && the BAD..
and today isnt that good..
lets be honest –> im having a hard time! a hard time with life and emotions…
i have 20 days left! 20!!!..thats like a little over 2 weeks..it will go by so fast!!
i'm wrapped up in speaking at churches and getting my going-away party together
&&&& checking my support account EVERYDAY
hoping and praying that more money will be in there..
IM DRIVING MYSELF CRAZY!
i keep overlooking how BLESSED i am!
i have so much support && love and i'm letting this stress overtake me
and i'm focusing on the negative!
i cry alot..im going to miss home so much!!!
i try to remind myself that all this will be well worth it once i'm on the mission field..
but sometimes..i can't look past the emotions to find daddy's joy!
im usually not a person to ask for prayer..but honestly thats what i need the most!
pray i can find daddy's joy&&peace again..
that i won't be numb to the emotions but i won't let them overtake me either..
i just need prayer.
i have to remember this is my temporary home!
daddy has so much planned for me over the next year of my life..
if i can just make it through this last couple of weeks without breaking into 1000 pieces..
i'll be good to go!
but along with spilling my heart out i want to make a commitment..
a commitment TO YOU!
when i leave for the world race in 20 days!
i will be honest, COMPLETELY HONEST..
i want you to follow me EVERY step of this journey..
&& i know the journey isn't always going to be easy!
i promise i will make this time left count..
and i want YOU to know that you matter!
just reading this blog means more than you know!
i appreciate everyone that has helped me prepare for this &&
i'm so blessed to have yall in my life!
i pray that blessing will be on you && your family
&& that along with your obedience there will be abundance..
thank you for being you! and loving me the way i am..
&&& thankyou. thankyou. thankyou. for being apart of my journey!
