11.
^ the days left before launch^
*WOW*
{{everyday is different.}}
but as time slowly fades
&& day after day become closer to the day i leave
my tears are more frequent
but my heart yearns more && more for the nations!
this past friday night was my going-away party
i had made in my mind that crying was a NO-NO
but when i got up to talk..
+my heart become overwhelmed with the love and support
i didn't realize that much love could be in one room
and that made me think..
["if i was to back out of this mission
allow my feelings of wanting to stay in my comfort zone
deciding not to stretch myself for the calling daddy has given me
i would let so many people down!"]
-i wouldn't be letting down just my friends and family-
but i would be letting down….
the people daddy has already made divine appointments for me to meet
*the children.
*the homeless.
*the broken.
*the hurt.
*the mistreated.
*the ones that i have a heart for.
::they would be disappointed in me!!::
&& who am i to give up what could possibly be another sister/brother in christ?
[({SO…THAT IS NO LONGER AN OPTION!})]
–>daddy shows me over && over that this is what i need to do!
i question myself {A LOT}
and keep asking…ARE YOU SURE??
ARE YOU REALLY REALLY SURE??
and his answer is always..yes!
so i sit back in awe and watch my daddy at work..
he blesses and provides for me
|financially, physically, mentally, and spiritual|
:ON A DAILY BASIS.:
and that is why giving up isn't a option anymore.
I'm in this now!
ALL OR NOTHING!!!
&&& every door daddy opens he grabs my hand and we walk through it together
and sometimes those doors are always brilliant opportunities knocking..
sometimes its trail && hurt && a sense of loneliness
but it all gets me to state of brokenness!
the best state to be in..
because that's when i rely on my heavenly father THE MOST!!
so i can look in the enemies face and say BRING IT ON!
because with my God anything is possible!
&& though this trip may be costly (financial & spiritual)
it is SO going to be worth it!
11 countries. 11 months
that is what i have been called to do!
and its getting harder to say goodbye
but so much easier to realize what is about to happen
the next 11 months are going to be LIFE CHANGING!
XOXO,erica
