Writing this blog has been a challenge. That's one thing I'm sure of.
Having expectations about things has never really been good for me. I usually end up getting let down, so, recently I've been trying not to have expectations about things. Until now. Now I've been asked to write about what I expect, and I've been thinking about it for days.
Here's what I came up with:
I expect to be uncomfortable.
I've never been comfortable with public speaking. I've never been great with kids. I've definitely gone to the bathroom in the woods before, but never on a regular basis. I can't even imagine being in a country where English is barely spoken. Not to mention, the sleeping conditions. Those are bound to be uncomfortable.
I expect to be wrong.
Wrong about myself. Wrong about how I see the world around me. Wrong in my thinking that no one is going to like me.
I expect to meet some amazing people.
Both on my squad and in the countries we visit.
I expect to miss home.
What else is new?
I expect to be changed and I expect to see God.
I expect to see him work in me and in my teammates, that we might see a change each other, as well as the people we encounter. I expect to see him heal. I expect to see him answer prayers. I expect to see him. All over the place.
I know that it's good to have these expectations. I also know that they can and probably will change. Most of all, I know that it doesn't really matter what I expect, because God knows how it's all going to go down. His will is perfect, and I can't wait to see what He has planned.
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is — his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12: 2
