From my Journal:
Sunday January 12, 2014 Day 189 Week 28
I marked the week today because this is the week I want to see change start happening. Im not entirely sure what put that idea in my head, but I have a pretty good idea. I’ve been going through this dry spell with God for the past couple of months. Since Nepal, really. Last month, in Thailand, I was still kind of feeling it, but I became content because of how I felt whenever we went prayer walking along the border, or when we went into Burma. God really filled me with His love for those people, so I began to think that when He felt far away, that it was normal. That I didn’t have to feel super high on the Spirit just to be at an ok place with God. I was content. And i’m not saying that’s a bad thing, because its not. It’s true that just because I’m not at spiritual high, it doesn’t mean I’m at a spiritual low. But this month, I’m tired of it. I’m tired of feeling spiritually dry and empty. I’m tired of being tired. Spiritually tired. It’s month 7. I’ve been away from home for over half a year now. I’m ready to go back to “normal life” (whatever that really is). I’m ready to see my family. I’m ready to hold that baby! I’m ready to start what God has planned for me after the Race. But here’s the catch, I’m still on the Race. I’ve got 4-1/2 months left of the Race. I can’t check out now. I’ve got to keep growing. I want to keep growing. I’ve got to start feeling close to God again. And this is the week it’s going to start. This is the week I get my second wind. I turn 24 a week from tomorrow and 24 is going to be my year. I’m determined to make it happen. I know that God is going to make it happen. And I’m excited. And it all starts today.
Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and His understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
they will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and now grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
-Isaiah 40:28-31-
