My apaulogies for not blogging much. I can blame it on the inconvenience of not having amazing access to internet, especially those of us without laptops, and not being ambitious enough to overcome those inconveinces.
In light of our rest here in Swazi and the fact that it is our half way point I assume I should follow in line in making assessments on who I am, who I was sort of thing. The task seems daunting however as I’ve forgotten who I was and am in the middle of who I am. This missionary culture is certainly a consuming one. I suppose the better question is do I like who I am and where am I going? So now I have a plethora of selfish questions(questions concerning the the topic of myself), “Who was I?” “Who am I?” ” Is that oK?” and, ” Who do I want to be?” If thats not enough the question “Is who I wanted to be the same thing I want to be now?” I was told in comm class that self esteem lied in subtracting between all of these. I was always told them I don’t know how to plug math numbers into these questions. But here goes.
Who was I? 462
Who am I? 671
Who do I want to be? 1014
do the math, i don’t have a calculator…
Worthless? I know! Well, sparing you the real details here is some things I need to work on…
DRAW and WRITE more…I am sucken in creative output, it is my livelihood and I am spoiling it on…I don’t know what! I did lose my painting tin recently, and all my frickin paintings thus far, but I have other means of drarin and being creative including this lovely blog page, I need to use it…
Being unoffendable…so important while living in community, forgive and learn should be the first things out of the mouth. We are all trying to get better at life…
Eating and excercise…I sit here with a bag of Simba chips at my feet and a pack of cookies in my pocket, and I wonder why I have had the flu for the last week
Letting God in…I have let God into much of my life over these past couple of months, even years, and he wants more!!!! dang it what do I have to give, my whole life? ooooh….
now add 4 to the “who do I want to be” column…
