As we continue our journey each day, it is always so amazing to look back at our lives and reminisce over all the work that God has done. Looking back at my life, it is not always filled with the best memories. There were times when I felt so lost and alone in the world. Times when I just didn’t care anymore and times when I thought I was abandoned. But when God truly showed me what a relationship with him really looked like, I realized how much I was loved. I saw how God had been with me every step of the way. He showed me that I had the same strength he did, when he walked on this earth.
No matter what I was going through in life, God has always kept a smile on my face. In times when it seemed I had nothing to smile about, God gave me joy. You know that saying, “There is always light at the end of every tunnel?” Well that is my story. I’m living in the light. And it is an everlasting light that will keep on shining. How about you?
I’m not a poet, but here’s a poem that God laid on my heart one night in 2013:
Set Free
Pain, tears, anger, deceit
Emotions flood, questions arise
Why me?
The face of humanity
Scarred from the past,
but moving forward and
hoping it will last.
I use to wonder why all the pain
and hoping it would rain to wash away the tears
I cried everyday.
Save me! Help me! I cried,
until one day all the tears dried.
There he is,
He was with me on the ride
He opened my eyes.
Halleluhah! I say.
Happiness, Joy, and a Smile on my face!
You have set me free!
As I bow on my knee,
I sing glory to the angles and the newborn King,
because when I look up now,
I know that it is you that has Set Me Free!
Since the day I have set foot in Korea, God has showed me blessing after blessing after blessing. I have been blessed with finding a church, meeting amazing people around the world, and have been tested spiritually in ways that I never have before.
One day, at bible study, when I heard about the world race, it was like hearing about a dream that I had always wanted to do. A dream that years ago, I wouldn’t have imagined. The way that God has captured my heart in life, is unbelievable. When we trust in God, and follow his obedience, he will never lead us astray.
After being accepted into the race, God has been challenging me. He has put me in a position where, no matter how much I wish I could provide this trip for myself, I can’t. Sometimes it is so easy to say how much we trust God until we are put in positions where we have no control. This is my position, no control, only faith.
I have been working and working getting so lost and caught up in achieving a short term gain, as opposed to pursuing the long term gain of having people come on this journey with me.
In Luke 5:4-10, it says:
4 When he had finished speaking, he said to Simon, “Put out into deep water, and let down the nets for a catch.”5 Simon answered, “Master, we’ve worked hard all night and haven’t caught anything. But because you say so, I will let down the nets.”6 When they had done so, they caught such a large number of fish that their nets began to break. 7 So they signaled their partners in the other boat to come and help them, and they came and filled both boats so full that they began to sink.8 When Simon Peter saw this, he fell at Jesus’ knees and said, “Go away from me, Lord; I am a sinful man!” 9 For he and all his companions were astonished at the catch of fish they had taken, 10 and so were James and John, the sons of Zebedee, Simon’s partners.
Then Jesus said to Simon, “Don’t be afraid; from now on you will fish for people.”
This is my heart for the race, to fish for people, because through Christ we can do all things. Not I, but we. With your support and prayer I ask that you prayerfully come and lets do this together.
