Many people will tell you that a million things can change your life in a year. I never believed them. I thought that it was impossible. Nobody can change that much. Well I thought that a year ago. Now I am that person telling people it will get better, Jesus can change your life.
A year ago.
Last year I acted as if I was this person who had it all figured out. Where she wanted to go to school, what she wanted to major in, and how she was going to accomplish it all. I acted as if I had this amazing relationship with Jesus and that nothing could mess it up.
On July 1st 2016, Exactly one year ago I was getting on the bus to go to Wilderness, and it was the last place I wanted to be. I wanted to be at the lake with the rest of my family, not going on a six day backpacking trip in Colorado. You see I had no confidence in myself. I thought that I was going to end up turning around after day two or slow the whole group down. (which I did) But most of all I didn’t put my trust in God. I never truly had, I only allowed myself to let go of a tiny bit of my life and give it to him. I wanted to control my life.
I went through that whole week, and I didn’t put any of my trust in God. I thought I was strong enough, but man was I wrong. But my life changed the end of that week.
The Turning Point
My life started to change on July 6th 2016. It was peak day. They woke us up at three in the morning (yes 3am) so that we could watch the sunrise. They read from John as we watched the most beautiful sunrise I have ever seen. They had us carry a rock and told us to put our sins on to this rock just like Jesus had taken our sins. Then one at a time they called us and had us place a rock onto a pile and read John 19:30* as each of us placed the rock down. The moment that really changed my life was on the last night of the trip. They had us stay by ourselves that night. We were given pieces of scripture to read but the only one I remember is Psalms 23. While reading that I decided I was going to let go and god complete control of my life.
My Life Since Then
Since wilderness I have been on work crew, Got accepted into the World Race, been a Wyldlife leader to amazing girls, and finished high school. I have struggled with giving God complete control of my life. There are times where I find myself doubting him but whenever that happens I have Psalms 23 and Isaiah 54:10 to help me. I have never felt more confident in my life than right now.
In four days I will be getting on a plane and am heading to World Race Training Camp. I will finally meet with the people who will become my family for the next year, and I’m too excited
A year ago I was lost
Today I am found
A year ago I was drowning in lies
Today I am soaring with Jesus by my side
A year ago I hid behind a mask
Today I am confident in who Jesus made me.
*John 19:30 “It is finished”
