I just have a short message today.
A bit about me is I’ve spent the majority of my life thinking about myself. About how I look and what I wear and my skin and hair and blah blah all the physical things. Wondering what people thought about it. Asked for opinions and got hurt if they weren’t what I wanted to hear. Days ruined by one persons subtle glance that may have meant to be rude to me but probably almost positively wasn’t about me. I’ve starved myself and hurt myself and punished myself. I’ve tried to be all these things I’m not !! You’ve probably heard this kind of thing a million times before but I can never hear enough that everything’s not about me!! I’ve spent years healing from the idea that how I look is who I am. I’ve spent so long thinking people even cared what I look like when they don’t. The last couple years the lord has shown me not only that my heart should be the beautiful thing about me but that also everything I’ve hated about myself is exactly what I should love!! No one looks the same so it makes no sense to compare. Especially being on the race, all of us wearing no make up, dirty, not matching, not our Sunday best even on sundays, acne and weight gain and eye bags and all the things that make people people!! We are all people! And I’m like a total greasy mess but my heart is for jesus and people!! That’s all that matters !! Thank you Father for imperfection and growth and dirt. This life, this body, it’s all temporary.
What do our hearts look like?
