Fear. Doubt. Insecurity. Lies. In the past couple of weeks and in the weeks to follow, these have been and will be things put into my head. None of which come from the Creator.
One thing that has been put on my mind is this: God could not complete the world until there was thought of you. Until there was thought of me. This world is not complete unless I am here. God wants me here. That’s not to be prideful at all, however it’s true. I have been clinging to this as my support with thoughts of preparing myself for this trip.
I feel some days that I will not fit with my team, maybe we won’t click and it will all be awkward. It gets into my head that I won’t have a purpose in the location we are at or I won’t be able to make an impact on a child. It can be scary to think about all the places I could fail.
Heck, David brought stones to a sword fight and he came out victorious. Why? God used him, and created him for greatness. Now, I surely do not want to go face to face with a giant, but no matter the greatness of my fears, God can use me. God conquers my fears.
The TRUTH is that Satan will attack me and knock me down when he knows I am doing good work for the Lord. He finds those holes in my heart where I am weakest and tears me down so I doubt the need for myself in God’s kingdom. He destroys the worst when he feels threatened the most. A friend has taught me to take this as a compliment. This goes for both you and I! As these fears creep into my mind I can call upon on the name of Jesus. Satan has no place here. I should know that when he stirs up fear in those hidden places of my heart, I am doing my job well. I am going to be starting a new journey that is threatening to Satan. I am preparing for the work of the Lord, and I will be used in mighty ways. Why else would God have created me?
