When I was at training camp, they warned that the season in between camp and the race would be difficult. Just being transparent, I kinda chuckled to myself at that one, because I was kinda thinking…”what can happen in 7 weeks?”
BOY did God show me!
I have been faced with more challenges in these past few weeks than I have faced in a looonnngg time.
All my friends are gone, I have been going through some personal struggles, and all this while preparing for the race- physically, mentally, and spiritually. A sister is worn out.
I have found myself wishing this away too…like…God I’m ready to be done. God I am ready to move on. God I cannot wait to leave.
But then I remember a Word I got at training camp. My team leader Alex told me that she had a vision of me with my feet in the sand, and that she hears the Lord telling her to tell me to be where my feet are.
He knew I would need that Word as I am in this difficult season. I need to go through this because He desires to grow me and prepare me for the race and for life in general! Which reminds me of a verse in James, that reads “Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.” (James 1:2-4) Just reading that I can have confidence that this season is God breathed, and He is using it for His good. What man meant for evil, the Lord means for good!!!! Praise be for Scripture that guides me. Whew.
As hard as it is sometimes, it is ALL a part of His plan. Which is better than mine! Some song lyrics that I have been holding on through this say “You have saved me, so much better Your way. Hallelujah, Great Defender, it’s so much better Your way.” And in this hardship my heart sings that. Even when it doesn’t appear to be- it is SO much better His way. And I don’t even want control.
I am sharing this to encourage you all to fix your gaze on Jesus in whatever trial You are experiencing. I know it looks different than mine. I know you may be upset with your circumstances. I know it may seem impossible to hear Him- but worship Him anyways.
I am also sharing with you guys because you are my FAMILY! My support system. I wanted to ask you guys to pray for me in this time. Pray against feelings of discontentment and longing for the Race. Pray for a renewed spirit and for Jesus to wake my heart up! Just have 18 more days until launch.
I appreciate you each so much. Like I said, we are a family so if you have any prayer requests do not hesitate to reach out.
Blessings!
