I hope I’m enough. I hope I can have the best year before I leave. I hope I’m doing all that I can to glorify the Lord. I hope I can raise $16,600 in order to do this.
Last night at church, we talked about hope.
Being that it’s almost Christmas, many of us are most likely hoping for a safe and happy Christmas, or a gift we had in mind.
The pastor told us about how the only thing valuable enough to hold our hope is Jesus, and I thought that was so beautiful! But, I put the Lord in a box. I applied that to Christmas and I thought to myself “Oh, I’m pretty content right now. Not really hoping for anything.” I WAS WRONG FOR THAT ONE!!!!! I didn’t realize how goofy that was until I started paying attention to how many times I repeated the word hope in the span of a day.
I hope I’m enough. I hope I can have the best year before I leave. I hope I’m doing all that I can to glorify the Lord. I hope I can raise $16,600 in order to do this.
I analyzed all the things I said I hoped for, and that was just that day. I constantly use the word hope in such a dishonoring way, and I hate that! Of course the Lord has placed hopes and dreams in my life, and He wants me to use them to glorify His name, but man oh man do I know how to abuse them.
I hope I’m enough. I hope I can have the best year before I leave. I hope I’m doing all that I can to glorify the Lord. I hope I can raise $16,600 in order to do this.
I keep hearing these phrases repeated in my mind. A tactic from the devil to defer me from what is to come. SO GUESS WHAT!
I’m working on this-
I hope I’m enough:::: Jesus has already deemed me worthy. He reminds me I am enough and gave His life so I could know it.
I hope I can have the best year before I leave:::: The year isn’t going to be good if I continue to focus on how good I want to be. I need to honor the time I have right now, and be thankful for each moment as it comes!
I hope I’m doing all that I can to glorify the Lord:::: This is all up to me. The Lord has given me the gifts and abilities to honor him and bring him praise, and I need to take advantage of them. Having confidence in what I do and use is so important! All you can do is what you did. A good motto to live by.
I hope I can raise $16,600 to do this:::: This is probably the hardest one for me right now. Each time someone takes time to give to my trip, I take that as a “I am doing this because I am confident in you and what you’re doing.” and I also see it as God saying “Emma, here is my reassurance that you are meant to go next year. I’m getting you there.” BUT! Hear me say this. IT IS HARD. I am so passionate about this and so sure my heart is in the right place. But, I hate asking for money even though I know it’s the only way. I hate the possibility that money could disable me from partaking in this. I hate it when people ask me how much I have to raise and they make a face of concern. I KNOW MY GOD IS GREATER. I trust and believe that and am learning so much even as I type this, but yes please be praying that my hope is placed in Jesus and not in the amount of money I raise. That does not deem me worthy.
Pray I can rid my mind of the thoughts-
I hope I am enough. I hope I can have the best year before I leave. I hope I’m doing all that I can to glorify the Lord. I hope I can raise $16,600 in order to do this.
