Who are you when no one is looking? Are you still Godly? Are you still pure? Are you still slow to anger? Are you quick to forgive? Or are you everything you strive to be when people are around but lack your integrity? Its during my pruning season that I actually grow in integrity and complete goodness.
I asked the Lord to reveal to me things I do that aren’t of Him so He can help me work on it. I didn’t realize how much I mumbled under my breath until a hard day came and I was feeding my flesh more than my spirit man. It didn’t fail, every time I would mumble under my breath, someone would be standing behind me, definitely within earshot. Wouldn’t you know, one of the people who heard me was one of my squad leaders. Thankfully, she didn’t call me out or embarrass me, but she peacefully said she would die to self, and do what needed to be done. I saw the Lord in her at that moment. I realized how I was acting. I remembered asking the Lord to break my heart of things that break His. And that was it. I broke my own heart.
Thankfully, the Lord is quick to forgive and correct. It’s been a few days since I started typing this blog post and in those days, the Lord has brought me peace and understanding. Being pruned to bear fruit is painful, but the harvest is so beautiful. It’s a breathe of fresh air. I love how cool God is. This is such a beautiful season. The Lord has changed my outlook and my attitude entirely. It clicked to me. I’m here literally being the hands and feet of Jesus. I am excited to give everything I have to help someone else encounter how simply wonderful the Lord really is.
2 Peter 1:5-8 2 Corinthians 9:6
