With just four weeks left before I leave on the World Race, there are a variety of thoughts and to-dos running through my head. Thoughts like “Have I gotten all my shots yet?”, “I’m so not prepared for this”, “I’m so ready for this and just wish September 9th was here already” and my favorite, “BUY NEW UNDERWEAR.” Hahaha! But seriously, I’ll be living in community with a minimum of 6 other girls and I’m sure they don’t want to see my current ones hanging on our shared clothes line. But there are other, scarier doubts and thoughts that have been playing round and around in my mind recently. Was I really called to this? Did I allow my enthusiasm to lead me to the World Race instead of the Spirit? What if the pain of leaving my identical twin for 9 months becomes too much?
The reality is that these are real concerns and struggles that I might and probably will wrestle with while on the field. There will be day in a Guatemala where ministry feels staggered and our team is ununified. There will be times when I haven’t seen my family for several months and the thought of giving up and going home crosses my mind. But the reality is I HAVE been called to this and the Lord WILL sustain me through each of these struggles, even the old undies issue.
My blog posts are here for good so whether you’re reading this in current time or if I’ve already launched on the Race and you’re creeping on this blog months late, it’s okay- we all do it, I ask you to pray for me. I’m coming to realize that no matter where I’m at on this journey I will always be faced with a situation out of my control. Not only am I excited for the ministry opportunities to be had and the friendships that will no doubt be made, but as hard as it will be I am also ready for the ways the Lord wants to teach and grow me.
So, as I give these things to God and ask Him to lead me 100%, I ask you to lift me to the Father. Thank you for walking beside me in this, friends!
