I wish I could say all my goodbyes at once. That every single person could be present at the same time, we would do one big group hug and just get the water works over in one sitting.
If you have any idea how to organize this please let me know.
This past weekend I went through more goodbyes. This one was harder than ever because it was with the team that has been there for me for the last 5 years. The girls who have laughed when I fell over, let me cry on their shoulder, pushed me through tough workouts, challenged me to be better and let me be exactly who I am without judgment. On a team of all girls, sometimes that is a feat in itself. This goodbye was so difficult because what if I never find a group of people that I can be so real with?
During the first leg of my journey, I will be with the same team of 7 girls. My hope is that we can create a bond that gives us the freedom to be ourselves. To show our quirky weird side with the understanding that we are loved for our differences. Through my college teammates, I have learned TOO much about each person. They know who they are, but I always admired them for being fearless, for owning who they were without a care of what I or anyone else will think. I don’t think I will ever get to that place of pure freedom to express anything and everything out loud, but I hope my team Soul Spark will help me in revealing these things to myself instead of keeping them hidden.
This weekend I also got to welcome back a great friend (Cara Lutes – check out her blog at caralutes.theworldrace.org) who recently returned from the World Race. Our time together though short was so meaningful. It was so crazy with how right it felt that we were hanging out, yes I definitely noticed she was gone for 11 months, however, when we were together it felt normal. It was as if she was just gone for a few weeks just like basketball season. Cara provided me with so much wisdom on The World Race, growth and life. She helped calm my nerves on feeling inadequate, and she reassured me it was okay to doubt myself at times.
For God has said, I will never fail you.
I will never abandon you.
Hebrews 13:5
For every doubt. – God loves me –
For every fear. – God loves me –
For all my desires. – God loves me –
For all my fault. – God loves me –
The common thing with God is He loves me. He never wants us to go through life without feeling loved, wanted and needed. God is so great to have given me my college teammates, and I am beyond excited to experience the world with team Soul Spark. He brought us together for a reason that He will reveal throughout our journey. So ladies pack (stuff, cram whatever you need to do) your bags, bring your bug spray; don’t worry I have sun screen because it is officially 14 days until we are together again.
