Hey! I know I haven’t posted in A WHILE, and I do apologize for that. I’ve learned that life on the race can be a little frantic…
I want to share something that I wrote in my journal today when I was spending time with the Lord:
Life looks different in different seasons. Sometimes it looks like sleeping on the floor in an uncomfortable apartment in Asia. Sometimes it looks like having a mental breakdown with your best friend on FaceTime. Sometimes it looks like cramming 6 people onto a tiny porch to escape the heat of inside. And sometimes it looks like wake-up, spend time with God, sleep, repeat. Life can look different day to day, month to month, year to year. But what doesn’t look different is God. Ever. God continues to stay constant no matter what season YOU are going through. He stays faithful. He stays loving. He stays GOOD. Something He’s taught me today, in this season, is that He stays worthy for worship. In the highs AND lows (especially the lows), He stays worthy. He deserves praise on every day, every month, and every season. Just because we are changing does not mean He is.
This is something I have been struggling to understand for quite some time. I always thought that if my circumstances were less than perfect, so was my God. Today, He completely wrecked me of that thought. He is perfect and always will be, and our feelings and emotions should not determine the amount of praise He gets.
This month has been hard for me- very hard. I would even go as far as saying it’s the hardest month of my life, the hardest time of my life. I’ve questioned God a lot, I’ve been angry at Him, I’ve yelled at Him and argued with His reasons for putting me here. But, slowly and surely, He’s been revealing things to me that are starting to make sense. He’s been showing me how He can be the peace in my life. He’s been showing me how He is my comfort. He’s been showing me that He is my home. This month has been hard, but I know that God has been holding my hand through it all.
There will be so many lows and valleys, but I will continue to praise God because He continues to deserve it.
