I got through security way faster than I had expected to. I waved to my mom and headed into wait at the gate for an hour and a half. I had planned to read the June 8th devotion from My Utmost for His Highest if I had time, so with more than enough time to spare, I pulled my copy from my daypack and opened it up, and I read:
“If you believe in Jesus, you are not to spend all your time in the calm waters just inside the harbor, full of joy, but always tied to the dock. You have to get out past the harbor into the great depths of God.”
I think I’ve lived far too much of my life in the harbor. Partly because I have a hard time not being in control, but also because it’s easy. My personality thrives in the quiet, familiar that is my home, and I can easily control most of what happens around me. Yet when I get too comfortable, my spirit suffers. When I can do it, why would I need God?
My spirit thrives in the chaotic real world. When I’m forced to depend on God for the big and small, for my sanity, for my strength. That’s where I’m at this morning. I’m so excited to meet my teammates and learn a little about what God has for this next year, but my introverted self is cowering in a corner at the thought of so many new people. But I’m trusting that God will show up. That he will give me moments of peace in the middle of the craziness. That he will give me the strength to keep going when I shouldn’t have any left. Because my God has called me out of the harbor, and into a calling that will reveal the depths of who he is, and I can’t wait to see it.
