You might be like me, I stuffed my emotions.
Like a turkey on thanksgiving, stuffed to the brim,
There’s no more space for more emotion,
In fact there’s now no more room for anything,
I’m full,
By the overwhelming emotions stirred up in the crock pot of life and stuffed in me on Thanksgiving day,
I can’t handle any more but I don’t know how to let it all out,
My entire life this is what I’ve done,
Stuff stuff stuff,
I don’t want people to know what’s inside,
I don’t want them to taste the stuffing that’s been filling me for so long,
I’m learning how to sit with all the filling,
I’m learning that just like on Thanksgiving day when you toss that turkey in the oven to cook, I too have to sit in there with my stuffing cooking fully,
Yesterday my mom emailed me the words, “It’s OK to feel what you feel.”
She had no idea I was full to the brim and ready to explode but He did,
And He is showing me that its okay to feel what I feel,
He gave me emotions,
In fact He is the inventor of emotions!
So I’m learning how to sit in the oven with all those stuffings simmering within me,
And I realize that having the overwhelming fullness of emotion is actually a gift,
People don’t base their thankfulness on thanksgiving day on what’s in the stuffing in the turkey,
Today I’m thankful for every part of how He made me and for the fact that He will sit with me in the oven until I fully understand what He is teaching me.
I still don’t know how to healthily deal with emotions. But I’m learning. And He meets me right here in the heat of life. Because He knows what’s in the stuffing and He loves me.
Here’s an amazing song to check out:
