You always hear that God is 'good, faithful and just,' to the point that it is redundant and doesn't sink in all the way. That last part is what always gets me. It's like "alright, cool, He is good and He is faithful, but oooh girl! You best watch yo-self!!" Although, it's the middle part that has been sinking in for me lately, every day I am learning just how faithful our Lord and Savior really is.
Lately I have been struggling with the idea of moving out. I hadn't talked to Jessica in a few weeks and had decided to take the easy route. Living with 5 guys was awesome, I love my roommates! I don't pay rent, have help with everything and always get to see my friends. Living on my own would be costly and lonely… but living with my boyfriend is not Biblical and I am living in sin (no matter how 'good' we are when we are together). I was finally stricken with the reality of the situation when I spoke with Jess yesterday, that if I don't move out, I might be kicked off the race… AHH! I realized how ridiculous it was of me to be taking the easy road and to not be relying on God! I know that my support account is still very low (but thank you SO much to everyone who has helped me out!) and I was planning on taking all the money I had saved up to put into my account so I could for sure go to camp and have enough money at least for my first check point. I am still nervous to find a place either close to work (so I can walk) or close to here (so I can still share a car with Dan) or somepalce cheap enough that I can buy a car too (which I don't really want to do.)
I am completely leaning on Christ and handing him over the keys. I have faith that a door/window will open for a house and/or a car and that enough money will be in my account for each check point. I believe 100% that He has called me to this race, so why am I doubting that He will provide for it?? I want to hear "well done, my good and faithful servant" as I lean on His faithfulness.
