I get to minister in Thailand and Cambodia this summer.
The fact that I get to say that as my reality is evidence that The Lord heals His people in immense ways and uses them despite their brokenness.
For those of you that have never applied or have seen the application, you are asked questions that delve into the deepest part of your heart and life, even the areas that can bring the most shame. After I had sent in my application, I became laden with anxiousness realizing how desperately broken I was. I remember searching through different acceptance posts of other racers trying to to find a testimony similar to mine and I just couldn’t. I have always believed Jesus provides power and does such a work when His people choose to be vulnerable so let me share some stuff with ya.
If it were not for Jesus, I wouldn’t be alive today. The people that surround me, the air I have in my lungs, the life that I have on Earth would not have been spoken into existence if it were not for Jesus. Jehovah Jireh and Jehovah Rapha is how I would describe my relationship with God. He is my provider and He is my healer.
All throughout middle school and high school, getting out of bed was single handedly the heaviest thing I had to do. As a fifteen year old waking up and thinking of the day ahead of me made me want to fall back into a continuum of sleep so I wouldn’t have to live that day. I have had a spiritual battle over my mental health as far back as I can think to. I was officially diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder in January of 2018 although it had started years before then. There was always an underlying feeling of fear to have this be my testimony because of the stigma that comes hand in hand with depression. He revealed to me that my fear had no place in the name of Jesus and through his mercy has shown me healing.
Now, as a twenty year old I rejoice when I open my eyes in the morning and as I live my day. This is not to say that I am completely free of this bondage, Jesus is still daily working with me through that process. He impacts my daily life by the overwhelming amount of joy and hope He has instilled within me. Scripture states “For God gave us not a spirit of fearfulness; but of power and love and discipline”. Jesus has shown me how to love others more than myself, He taught me dependency, He has shown me that my life is worth living, that He comes to all who call, that He provides comfort in seemingly implausible ways, but most of all, Jehovah Rapha showed me He is a healer of all people and all things.
I felt so strongly to share this as my first blog post to set the foundation of my ministry through the World Race. This all has NOTHING to do with me. My acceptance, my growth, my joy and absolutely anything else that can be thought of has NOT been done by my own power and I encourage you to rejoice with me in saying that!
My friends that come in contact with this post, Jesus provides healing for you in any way that you are seeking it. He is taking me, someone who is broken and imperfect, to spread the love and the gospel of His Kingdom. I am so very excited for this upcoming mission I will be going on and cannot wait to see the ways The Lord uses me and the rest of His people.
Stay tuned for my next blog post!
