It seems like I’m always in this “process” of overcoming some sort of obstacle here on the world race. Just when you think you understand something, God decides to throw something else at you. You grow so much every day that last week almost seems like last month. I’m constantly being stretched and pushed into the person I know God has created me to be. I know the results are and will be beautiful but it sure is painful. I say that I’m being “pushed” because you can’t really say “no” on the world race. There is absolutely no way to get through the race without being completely open to change. You can try, but you’ll be miserable.
The Lord has been teaching me a lot of things. I’ve been processing so much that it’s been really hard to choose one thing to blog about. Especially when I still feel like "I haven’t quite gotten there yet”. I’m still learning. (Go figure)
The major lesson I’ve been learning is how to die to self, which encompasses so many things. I’m learning things such as patience; hearing Gods voice, trust, having a disciplined mind, a selfless heart, servant hood etc. I mean the list goes on and on.
During our morning devotions, my squad leader Ben spoke about dying to self and how letting God have full control of your life does not mean losing your identity.
When I hear the term “dying to self” I usually picture myself out in the wilderness somewhere wearing goatskin, eating wild honey and locusts screaming “Repent! The kingdom is near” just like John the Baptist did.
Thankfully Ben ended on this note: When you die to self, you’re not losing your personality. By allowing Him to have full control he enhances the beauty he’s already placed in you. God doesn’t create anything ugly. Whoever God has called you to be is going to be extravagantly beautiful.
So whenever I’m feeling frustrated or annoyed with something I can or cannot do I just remember that by being obedient and submitting to Christ I’m just growing into someone more beautiful, more vibrant, and more loving.
So I just want to say I’m sorry! I will try to blog more often… even when I feel like “I’m not quite there yet”.
I mean, let’s face it. This is The World Race. I’m never going to “be there”. God is infinite and so is His love for us, which means I have a lot of learning to do 😉
