• I once was lost
  • I was broken
  • Hurting
  • Searching
  • Seeking
  • Thirsty
  • But now I’m found
  • I’m whole
  • I’m healed
  • I’m growing
  • Fed by a living well
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  • Have you heard this before?
  • Does it sound memorized
  • A rehearsed lie?
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  • Let me tell you the truth
  • The truth that springs
  • From the deepest part of me
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  • This Is My Story
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  • Born as the third
  • The third of three
  • They call me Baby Emily
  • They loved me
  • They love me
  • Mother Father
  • Brother Sister
  • Perfect little family
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  • Home was our house
  • And home was our church
  • Twice on Sunday
  • Tuesday
  • Wednesday
  • Thursday
  • Friday
  • Saturday
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  • Church was my life
  • But
  • Church wasn’t Christ
  • Has any one ever told you?
  • I grew up in the Church
  • But not in Christ
  • A building
  • And not the body
  • A place and not Grace
  • Church is Ecclesia
  • More than just rooms
  • Baskets and pews
  • But grace is not something I knew
  • Sunday school was to serve
  • And then youth group when I grew
  • But I was too much for them
  • A freshman in high school
  • Too much for them to deal
  • Made too much noise
  • Searched too hard
  • I was in search of truth
  • I asked too many questions
  • Let’s kick the problem out
  • Because that’s the solution
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  • So
  • Praise was just singing
  • Preaching meant napping and knitting
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  • But beyond the Church
  • Christ was still living
  • Christ was king
  • At six I’d heard enough
  • I prayed the sinner’s prayer
  • At that moment
  • I was found forever
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  • Found yet so lost
  • I prayed a prayer blindly
  • I was still a girl
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  • Hurting
  • Broken
  • angry
  • dying
  • I saw death
  • I’m now not one of three
  • But one of two
  • Dead and gone
  • My brother in heaven
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  • I felt rejected
  • I hated God
  • Why couldn’t he get me out of these messes
  • I prayed the sinner’s prayer
  • Wasn’t I better forever
  • My soul was sick
  • Sick and broken
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  • Read your bible more
  • Pray every day
  • Complain less
  • Be happy
  • Sing praises
  • Worship
  • Be obedient
  • Do good things
  • Follow all the rules
  • Be good girls
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  • So I fought to be good
  • I knew my scriptures
  • Knew my verses
  • Yet I still felt rejected
  • I couldn’t be perfect
  • And it wasn’t worth it
  • I wasn’t worth it
  • I knew the truth
  • Yet I wasn’t free
  • I said means things
  • I was the bully and the bullied
  • High school
  • Temporary prison for this girl
  • Spat on
  • Kicked
  • Teased
  • What a shocker
  • I was the girl
  • Thrown into the locker
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  • I was too hurt to be nice
  • Too weak to fight
  • I was searching
  • Longing
  • Someone teach me
  • About this God you see
  • About this joy you seek
  • One after another
  • No one saw me
  • Let the problem be
  • So I grew
  • Angry and bitter
  • Lost a loner
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  • My body followed
  • This train of pain
  • A ticking time bomb
  • Serious condition
  • Unknown diagnosis
  • So the doctor’s say
  • We’ll just help the pain
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  • 2 more days to see
  • then you’ll lose vision completely
  • scoliosis
  • neurological disease
  • spinal cyst
  • GOD WHAT IS THIS
  • Death seemed nice
  • I was ready to give up the fight
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  •  
  • Then one day
  • Someone said grace
  • Someone said mercy
  • It’s
  • Getting what we don’t deserve
  • Not getting what we do
  • It was Grace alone that healed me
  • Opened my eyes to see
  • Healed my brain
  • Took away my pain
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  • Therefore just as sin came into the world
  • Through just one man
  • Death through sin
  • Spread to all mankind
  • Sin was here before me
  • Brokenness
  • It didn’t come from me
  • It was born in me
  • What I didn’t know
  • Was that the grace they talk about
  • This grace was free
  • Not like sin and brokenness
  • It was one man’s sin that broke us all
  • The fall
  • One’s man’s action
  • Had death reign
  • One man’s trespass
  • And sin remained
  • But grace is much more
  • Grace is stronger
  • One man’s life
  • On one Cross
  • One last breath
  • One last death
  • So by one man’s obedience
  • The many will be made righteous
  • Sin was great
  • But grace is greater
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  • GRACE
  • G-R-A-C-E
  • A five letter word
  • So complex
  • Yes so simple to me
  • It was new to me
  • I learned that there was a law
  • A law I couldn’t keep
  • Rules I couldn’t hold
  • I knew why I was broken
  • And I knew I couldn’t fix it.
  • Grace brought me peace
  • And when grace became the root
  • In my life
  • Peace became the fruit
  • No longer was I separated
  • From my father who created
  • But I was held in the arms
  • Of the one who made the stars
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  • Upon my new roots
  • Came new thirst
  • New weeds to kill
  • A new heart to fill
  • But His water is good
  • He gave a paraclete
  • A comforter who never leaves
  • A scripture feeding my every need
  • Combating those very weeds
  • Don’t get me wrong grace isn’t easy
  • But the law is impossible
  • So my Jesus said
  • Walk with me
  • Live in joy love freely
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  • And the judge
  • threw down the gavel
  • On one lonely Hill
  • TETELESTAI
  • He said it is finished
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