Dear Future Me,
I am writing to you from Lezhe, Albania after 11 whole days of being on the race. I hope you are fully rested after finishing the race and back in the states with all your family and friends you have been missing so much this last year. I hope that you are adjusting well to life back in America and eating lots of cheese fries drenched in ranch and drinking your weight in chocolate milkshakes. I hope you are laughing lots and living out the new lifestyle you have created for yourself and the routines you have set in your daily schedule. I hope you are just truly enjoying the beautiful gift of life that God has created for you.
As I am sitting here surrounded by beautiful mountain tops and gorgeous weather, I think about how much my life is going to change this next year, not only with God and learning more about Him and His people, but also in understanding my true identity in His eyes. I desire to see the world through His eyes and go more in depth with Him than I ever have before.
By the time you read this I hope a lot has changed in your heart. I hope you have changed the way you think of yourself and have started loving who God made you to be. I hope you have stopped comparing yourself to other people and have started to allow yourself to be comfortable in your own skin. I hope that you are no longer shameful and guilty but confident in who the Father says you are, forgiven. I hope you stopped the selfish thinking and have acquired a generous spirit. I hope you genuinely love yourself the way that God does. I hope you don’t question yourself and you are stable in the person God calls you to. I hope you are genuinely happy with who you are.
After the race I don’t want things to go back to how they were before. I want you to be a better person for your creator and a servant to Him on a daily basis. I want you to do things because they will honor Him not just because you want to. I pray you stop letting yourself fall into the teenage girl mentality of “he said, she said” talk. I hope you don’t let yourself be just like everyone else and contribute to the most interesting gossip of the week but stand strong in being a woman of God. I want things to be better, Emily, and I hope you have really grown as a person and as a child of God this year.
Love,
Your “on the field” self
