Loving With the Eyes of God

       Even though it’s been awesome so far, it’s also been a challenge. I found myself at
the beginning on Launch becoming very shut down and quiet, like the little shy girl inside of me came out. I hate it when it happens but it is uncontrollable, or at least for now it is. Hopefully that will change.

       One thing that was encouraging during our Launch was during one of our training sessions Allison Johnson came and prayed over me. She spoke the very words I needed to hear. She told me how God wants to reveal the wild woman in me, to untame my spirit and be strong in that. And of course I bawled like a baby. 

       Judgement unfortunately goes along with this shyness. I start seeing people for the brokeness that they are and not for the man/woman God sees them as. 

       So as we visited Sarah’s Covenant House yesterday and we met all the disabled kids, I understood. I noticed not only in myself but in others that of course the cutest little kids received the most attention and the ones who were maybe dirtier or not as cute were maybe just patted on the back or smiled at. It broke my heart at that moment. How is that fair that something as uncontrolable as looks determines how much love or attention you get. God loves each of those kids the exact same and so should we. 

       That same outlook goes along with team outlooks too. I will be honest, there are people on my squad who I just don’t connect with for whatever reason and it’s really bothered me. But my challenge for right now is to stretch myself to look with the eyes of God and love those on my squad as He loves them for who they are. 

       Continue to pray for me. Pray for such uncontrolable growth in me and that my identity in Christ will be so strong and solid that Christ just radiates from me.