…it has been a long time since I have written… I have missed it but haven’t known what to share. If I am honest with myself I think a lot of the time I didn’t know what the Lord was teaching me, felt I didn’t have a ‘handle’ on my life, didn’t feel like I had much to share……
but that is not true. You walk through life with people on your easy days and on your hard days. And emotionally this last year and a half I would say there have been a lot of hard days. Feeling as though people usually blog once they have been through a trial and then write what they learned, I kept waiting…
over the last year and a half a part of me has felt lost. Moving around the world then moving around the country (FL to Cali to Seattle), in and out of jobs, title of missionary now no “title” of missionary, single now married, leaving the family I knew all my life to start another family with a wonderful man…many changes.
“The truth is, we don’t know who we are and so we are continually seeking to create an identity, present it to the world, make adjustments according to praise and criticism we receive, and lose sight of who we truly are…the result it they go looking to people or things to find their significance. When that happens our idolatry becomes our identity which leads to our misery” Who do you think you are? By Mark Driscol
Unfiltered Emily:
There have been many times over this last year and a half where I have felt very lost, alone, depressed, anxious, and very overwhelmed. I felt I didn’t know who I was, felt I had lost my identity when I came home from the World Race. I was a missionary doing “big” things for God to come back to America not having a job or a lot of the things I identified myself with before and I felt that I had lost my identity. My identity had been placed in being a missionary and “doing” things for God, not BEING with God. I have since then placed my identity in having a masters degree and being an occupational therapist, or in other people, or in being financially stable, and in my relationships, many things…
I wanted to be honest with you in where I have been and where I am at now. Where I am at now is after a year and a half I am realizing I have had a lot of ‘identity idolatry’…I have put my identity in many things other then Christ…in items, in duties, in others, in longings, and in sufferings.
The Lord has brought me through some really tough times since getting back from the race and now I am at the turning point of a new season. Not that I have learned all the secrets or have anything down yet but I wanted to start from the beginning with you and walk through this with you saying I don’t have all the answers by any means but I want to invite you in to walking through with me and discovering YOUR identity in Christ. Discovering your idols and what you have placed your identity in along with me. and if you ever want to talk i would love to talk and pray with you…
