I cannot believe it has already been 2 weeks since I got accepted! Time is flying by. I already have over $1,600!! Almost halfway to where I need by the 22nd! A big thank you to everyone who has donated! Seeing God’s faithfulness in providing is amazing to see. God is so good!! He also has been teaching me a lot this week. He has been showing me the IMPORTANCE of focusing and fixing my eyes on things that most people wouldn’t think were important. The things I should be focusing on are the things I cannot see, the things not here yet! I know, that might seem strange. I used to think I should be focusing on what I could see in the moment; however, God has changed my outlook on this completely.
Let me explain. A few months ago, I had started praying differently. I started to pray boldly. For the longest time, I would hear people say that I should pray boldly, but I never knew what that meant/looked like. No idea. At one point, it clicked. One time when I was talking to God, I had a certain tone and it all of a sudden made sense. This is what it meant to pray boldly, to come to God truly desiring something. After that, I have been praying in this exact way. Even before I got accepted into the World Race, I had been preparing my heart, my mind, and my life for what was to come, for me to get accepted and to go on the World Race. I had been already preparing with God for something that some might say wasn’t a sure thing. I had felt a deep calling to go on this journey and was/am prepared to do anything that comes along with that. Feeling this strongly about going on this trip, I knew God didn’t give me this desire for no reason. I prayed to God saying that I will trust Him in this, that I am going on the World Race. This is not me saying I prayed that I wanted something so therefore God was going to allow it to happen. I trusted God that He would not put something on my mind and heart so heavily if it wasn’t meant for me to do. It takes a lot of trust to not only believe this, but to ACT on it! Molding your life around the fact you are going to do something when it has yet to happen, takes a lot of faith and trust. However, I believe God gave me the strength to do this, to act on His promises, because it is what I am meant to do.
This is what I mean by “fixing your eyes on the things you cannot see”. Obviously I do not know all things. I do not know what is going to happen next year, week, tomorrow, or even an hour from now. You can have a set plan, but do you really know what is going to happen that day? However, the one thing I do know is God IS FAITHFUL. He gives us desires, passions, and this lines up with what He has in store for us, our purpose in life. Ultimately, that is to honor and serve Him. But will you ACT ON THAT? Will you say “okay God, it doesn’t look so clear now but I will trust that these passions I have are given from you, giving it my all, and will pursue you?” I dropped everything. Not literally, but in my heart, I dropped everything in my life. Everything in my life became secondary to what I was wanting, God’s purpose in my life. I was preparing in waiting.
This is not me boasting in how much faith I have. I do not have a perfect faith; at times this was so very hard for me to stick with. At times, I became unmotivated and asked myself if it was even worth it, if I should give up? The cool thing about this story is that despite the times I was unfaithful to God, He has been and always will be faithful! Even when I couldn’t see what was in front of me, God provided me the light for the next step to take. That step was to go all in, to cash in my chips. As one of my high school leaders from church said, “attempt something so great for God, it is doomed for failure unless God be in it”. This is me doing that. I want to jump head first into the sea called life, not knowing what will happen when I touch the water. I know God has something great in store for my life and each and everyone of yours. My question for you guys: the passion you feel, the calling you have, are you prepared to ACT on it despite the uncertainty of it all? Are you prepared to leave everything that is CERTAIN, for what God has in store for you, things UNCERTAIN? I cannot wait to see what God has in store for me leading up to the moment when I leave for the race, and the duration of time I am on it!
