okay so you know how in my last blog i was talking about freedom. i must tell you about some crazy encounters that have happened in the past few days. so you know that im working toward becoming 100% free and im at about 95%, which i am pretty happy about. so a couple of people decided to get baptized, so they can feel fully free and be able to really get closer with god. how awesome is that?! sweet as man. so they all wanted us to come down to the beach and be present for it, which was super nice of them to do that. so i went down there not knowing how this was going to affect me. so crazy. so now i bring in jenae. shes such an amazing girl that i am so happy to have met and so blessed to get to know.
jenae is someone who got baptized that day in the ocean. i noticed her mood and how happy she was to have that opportunity. before she got into the water, we were praying over her, and the things that the people said hit home in such a major way. it was almost like they were talking to me directly. it was a little freaky, but at the same time it was amazing, because it was like they were watering my seed of freedom for me. then jenae told us why she wanted to be baptized and thats when i seriously lost it. the reasoning she gave as to why she wanted to be baptized was everything i was thinking. she talked about being free, free from herself and wanting to become a new person and grow a stronger bond with god. sound familiar?! umm yeah, i think so. the fact that she wanted to become a new person, is something i want so bad for myself. and i know i will get there. i am so happy for her and her decision to get baptized. what an amazing feeling and experience for her!! yay!
so that night i started thinking about being free and what that means to me. it means pure joy and a pure relationship with god. something i so long for. i want to be a different person than i was when i started this journey. so i started praying to god for guidance on this issue. this is so weird. he told me that i was going to get re-baptized this trip. i dont know where or when but some time. i think i will be able to do it when i am 100% free, whenever that will come. so then the next day i was telling margie this new discovery. and so then she proceeded to tell me something really cool. at church that morning she was praying and god told her that i was going to get baptized by john. she didnt know when or where but sometime. seriously, how weird is that?! i didnt even say anything to her and she had that vision from god. so i told my team and they are all excited for me and john is more than willing to do it, if that is what god wants. best team ever!!
okay so that night i had a strange dream. i had a dream about jenae. in my dream she opened all the doors for me to walk through. so of course at first i thought, ah she is to be by slave and open all the doors for me!! yes! but then i started to really think about it and that it could actually be a message from god. this is what i got out of the dream. that jenae was opening all the doors for me because she was helping me towards my freedom. because she has been freed she now is helping me reach my goal and telling me its okay to walk through the doors, because god is on the other side waiting with open arms. all i must do is relax and accept it, which i know is hard for me but its what im working on. so im asking you to keep praying for my freedom and that jenae not only accepts his freedom but continues to thrive in it.
peace
