Hey friends. A lot has happened recently and, if I’m being honest, I’m not really sure where to begin with this one. I guess I’ll just start by letting you all know that I’m coming home early, and the decision was solely mine. This past month, quite a bit has come up and the Lord has been testing my faith like crazy. I’ve had some serious battles against my depression and I’ve recently been having health problems as well.
One night I couldn’t sleep and so I decided to sit with the Lord and let Him speak to me. He was being real talkative and throwing a bunch of stuff at me. Here are some of the things I heard Him say:
-I have other things in store, follow me.
-It’s time
-It’s okay, trust me
-There’s no shame
-You’ve found freedom, bring it back with you and don’t forget it
-I have other plans ahead of you, don’t be afraid
-This isn’t the end
-We will figure it out together
-There’s no condemnation
-I love you and want to help you
-I know it doesn’t make sense, just trust me
-Sometimes I take you on unexpected, sharp turns but that’s not the same as going backwards
-I am with you wherever you go
I was a bit overwhelmed and rather confused, but I kept getting confirmation after confirmation that home is where He was calling me. I didn’t want to believe it at first because I feared people would think I’m a failure for not finishing the race and I wanted to make people proud of me, but I had to set aside all pride and accept that God’s plans are far greater than my own. After praying about everything for awhile, I was filled with an overwhelming sense of peace and I am no longer afraid about the decision to come home. Coming home early was never an option for me, but sometimes the Lord throws curveballs and takes us from one good thing so we can move on to another good thing. I’m trusting Him 110% with this and I’m so excited to see what He has in store. The past 7 months have been some of the most rewarding, challenging, and life changing months of my life. Never will I be able to forget all that I’ve learned/experienced. Also, shout out to all of you who have been there for me through this crazy journey and have supported me in numerous ways. I’m so incredibly blessed.
Lastly, please keep me in your prayers as I begin the transition home.
