God has been showing me some pretty crazy things lately. The other night I was doing listening prayers for some of my teammates & He decided to show me some stuff for myself as well. There have been many times where some of my teammates would say they feel I’m going to be a leader of some sort. I just kinda laughed it off, because never in a million years would I see myself being a leader. But then last night God gave me a vision of myself on stage, speaking in front of thousands of girls. Yep, THOUSANDS. I suddenly felt overwhelmed with the Holy Spitit & literally thought “how in the heck?” I’m the type of person that will blush, shake, & stutter if I have to speak in front of people, so that vision seemed absolutely insane to me. I talked to some of the girls on my team about it & they brought up the story of Moses and how he didn’t feel adequate to speak in front of people or save people, but the Lord spoke through him & gave him the strength to do so.
Exodus 4:10- “But Moses said to the Lord, “Please, Lord, I have never been a skilled speaker. Even now, after talking to you, I cannot speak well. I speak slowly and can’t find the best words.” This is basically what was going through my mind & what I was telling God when I saw that vision, but the next couple verses hit me hard!
Exodus 4:11-12- “The Lord said to him, “Who gave human beings their mouths? Who makes them deaf or mute? Who gives them sight or makes them blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.”
Shoot. That’s all I can say! Even thinking about speaking in front of people makes me nervous & my heart starts to race, but I’m continuing to trust the Lord & if it’s His will, so be it.
“The unqualified never seek the stage because they know that’s not where their identity rests, seeking instead the quiet solace of secret God encounters.” -Pat Shatz
