Man, I suck at trusting God. If you look at me and think I’m half good at it – you are wrong. I might put on a good face. I might claim that I trust Him. But so often my actions don’t follow.
“Month 12” has been hard. It’s a freakin’ challenge to trust God with a million and one unknowns. It’s a challenge to hope in the unseen.
I’ve been stressed. I’ve been tired. I’ve questioned if I even hear God’s voice.
This last week, I went to “Project Searchlight” in Georgia. A time for World Racers that just returned from the field to have fellowship, to dream and to process.
It was a good week. And it was a hard week.
See, we, “alum” Racers are fresh meat. Satan is after every bit of us. This isn’t to give any credit to satan. But it is reality.
The past year, God has made me new. I have seen His hand directly. I’ve been refined in the fire. I’ve seen (SEEN!) His miracles.
Satan is attacking my greatest weaknesses right now. The shame. The anxiety. The stress.
I’ve wondered… why would satan attack my weaknesses instead of my strengths?
Want to know why?
It’s because my weaknesses ARE my strength.
2 Corinthians 12:9 says this,
My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.
Jesus’s strength is PERFECTED in my weaknesses.
It makes sense. It makes total sense why satan would attack my weaknesses. Because my weaknesses are really my greatest strength, if and only if I seek for the Lord to be the strength in my weakness.
I’ve got to give up on my weaknesses. I’ve got to stop fighting my flesh and simply surrender it to the Lord. I’ve got to embrace my weaknesses and my brokenness. I’m messy and brokenhearted and I can do nothing without the Spirit of the Living God giving me every breath.
It’s at my end where Jesus comes in. So, I surrender my flesh, my life back to the foot of the cross where I am made new. Where I am given strength. No more worrying about tomorrow and wondering how God is going to provide. Because He always has provided and He always will.
Praise be to the God of my salvation of my STRENGTH.
I pray that you, too, would realize your weaknesses are really your greatest strength.
Amen.
