About two weeks ago I was driving to the airport at two in the morning getting ready to leave for training camp. The emotions were overwhelming to be honest. There were so many nerves, fears and moments of excitement. Leading up to TC God has been telling me to let Him in, to let Him break me. It wasn’t until about day two that I let this happen. All the emotions I felt on the way to the airport were encasing me and I felt a little hopeless. In that moment Papa told me to let go. Honestly letting go was the best choice I made all week. By letting go God broke down my walls which left me vulnerable and in complete reliance of Him. When this happened the Lord broke me. He broke the identity I had been living in, He broke me out of my comfort zone and most importantly He broke the box I had put Him in. The shattering of my life was a hard pill to swallow but every day Papa sat, waiting for me to run to His arms, waiting to show me all the plans He has. In this there was so much comfort, love and freedom. It was overwhelming and honestly as I write my heart is so full and I cannot stop smiling. Letting go and letting God break me has been ( and will continue to be) incredibly hard but everyday God tells me that Him and are on a journey together. He is building me up and removing the pieces of the box I had kept Him in. We haven’t been on this new journey very long but God has been showing me so much. All I can really say is that I am falling more in love with Him everyday and He is patiently pursing me everyday. What a love story right?!
Training camp taught me SO much and there is so much more to write about but I didn’t want you to read a novel so I spared you! But email me, text me, ask me all the questions because I’d love to chat! To answer just a few, yes we all smelt pretty interesting. Yes, we used only port-o-potties. Yes, we took bucket showers. And yes our God is amazing-can’t say that enough. (:
Thanks for all of your love and support, you are all so awesome!
