As the day of launch draws near, I feel different emotions and face different trials than when this journey began.
I have become more aware of who I talk to, the interactions I have with the people around me and the emotions that my words evoke in people.
I have become more humbled by God’s goodness and his faithful people.
I have realized that there are so many things we take for granted and in the blink of an eye they could all be gone.
I see how these different backgrounds we come from, whether good or bad, can all lead to the feet of Jesus. We aren’t much different after all.
He has shown me that even though I’ve gone through some really dark times that they could have been much worse and that I have so much more to be thankful for than just the materialistic.
I have forgiven people that have severed deep wounds in my heart
and
I have began lasting relationships with some incredible men and women of God.
I have witnessed how much freedom you can feel by having the hope of the King and being able to truly dance like David danced.
I feel anxious about leaving my loved ones behind for a year and see the fear in their eyes as they watch me go out into the unknown, but learning to lean so much more on our Father because they know this is what He has called me to do.
I’ve had hard conversations and sent messages that made my heart jump out of my chest.
I’ve written tons of “Thank You’s” and soaked in as much of the here and now that I can, because in less than 2 months I will be sitting in Colombia writing a completely different blog than what I am today.
Although I am facing different trials today than I was 2 months ago or will be facing in 2 months there are some solid truths I know I can stand on.
God is good — all the time!
He is Sovereign.
Omnipresent.
Omnipotent.
Omniscient.
He will never leave me, nor forsake me.
He is Eternal and he is Infinite.
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I am more thankful, now than ever, for the many people God has placed in my life over the years. The ones that are still there and the ones that were only there for a season. If it weren’t for them, I would not have been molded into the person I have become.
I am grateful for all of the challenges I never thought I could make it through.
The grace God showed me when I made the wrong decisions and the peace I found when I made the right one.
Because of the goodness of God I can embark on an 11 month journey with a thankful and peaceful heart and know that I will be protected every step of the way.
I am alive. & free !
because He lives within me.
