Sometimes God asks us to do scary, uncomfortable things. For example, he will ask each of us at some point to be completely open and vulnerable with the people in our lives. I’m not sure if it’s harder to be honest with strangers or those closest to you. If we are obedient, God will use our vulnerability for unmeasurable good. Recently I was asked along with three other amazing, strong women to speak to a group of over sixty ladies about my personal struggle with a mental illness.
“You want me to do what?”
Public speaking itself isn’t easy for me, but sharing about my battle with anxiety is probably my least favorite thing to do. I wanted to say no. I felt inadequate, like no one would want to hear my story. I imagined that people would think I don’t have authority to speak about mental illness because I’m young. I also wondered if people would judge me for my weakness, and if that would affect how they viewed me and the year of ministry that I will soon be embarking on. Let me tell you now—these were all pathetic lies. It’s so important that we don’t let our fears silence us.
“What you said helped me.”
“I can relate to that.”
“I needed to hear this.”
The night was a resounding success. God showed up, and I felt immensely encouraged and healed in ways I didn’t even know I was hurting. I realize now that sharing my experiences had value for others and for myself. I felt a bond of sisterhood with many different women who also experience struggles with mental illness. I think this event was the beginning of a shift in the church from old ways of handling mental illness to new, healthy, beautiful ways. Where I once believed that I had to keep a wall around myself and hide my pain from others, I now feel welcomed as I am. As we become more aware of each other’s struggles, we are able to share our burdens and gain insight, encouragement, and hope.
I’d like to encourage you to speak more freely about mental illness. Ask those close to you if they have ever suffered from a mental illness. Ask them to share how it started, how bad it got, and how they are doing now. They will appreciate that you care enough to ask, and it will deepen your relationship. If you struggle with a mental illness, I’d encourage you to be vulnerable with someone close to you who isn’t aware of what you are going through. Pick someone wise—a good listener. Beginning the conversation about mental illness is the first step toward healing.
Stigma toward mental health problems has no place in the church. Let’s be the ones to speak love, truth, and healing over our brothers and sisters. You are seen, you are known, and you will be okay.
x Em
