Our time in Colombia is coming to an end, and in this blog post I attempt to wrap up our experiences here. It’s difficult to put what we’ve seen and done into words. How can I explain the life changes that have occurred, the healing, the learning, the awakening to one’s purpose and giftings, the life-giving community formed, the lightbulb moment when you realize what it means to truly follow Jesus and love your neighbor, not to mention the joy and subsequent sorrow of establishing relationships with people around the world and then having to say goodbye. This month has been one of unending ministry, off days and on. I’ve learned what Kingdom-focused living can look like, and my life will never be the same.
View of Medellin; Photo by Colby Wayenberg
Theme for the month: Press in
When circumstances are difficult, my natural response has always been to hide. Since before I can remember, I’ve avoided conflict. I literally ran from the room. As an adult, it’s not always possible to physically remove yourself from a situation, so I cope by withdrawing into my mind or shutting off my emotions. I’m physically present, but I’m hiding nonetheless. I’ve learned this month the importance of pressing in when I want to pull away. This practice has been life-changing. Community, ministry, growth–these are WORTH fighting for. I’m learning how to fight for what’s important, even when it’s hard, even though people are messy, even when I’m upset or hurt. Analyzing my actions and thoughts is important too. Why do I react and think the way I do? I’m learning to press into those areas, seeking answers for my deepest insecurities and negative self talk.
Manantiales Displacement Camp; Photo by Colby Wayenberg
I have also learned a lot from the ministry we partnered with this month. It has been a blessing to come alongside and encourage the local church; I’ve loved meeting with believers around the world and seeing how they worship our Father. The people at Ciudad de Refugio love their community so well by meeting both physical and spiritual needs. We have helped with their church and youth services, homeless program, addiction recovery and discipleship programs, vacation Bible school, teaching in private and public schools, and street ministry. God opened my eyes this month to the power of prayer; I’ve served as an intercessor during outreach and school ministry, and we also went on many prayer walks in the neighborhood. How amazing it has been to see how intercessory prayer paves the way for a fruitful harvest. One woman I prayed over this month started crying even though I prayed in English and she didn’t know what I was saying. The same Spirit that live in me lives in her, and He surpasses language barriers.
I’ve witnessed physical healings, the gift of tongues, forgiveness of past hurts, several people enter the addiction recovery program, and many come to salvation, including Uber drivers, children at a displacement camp, students at a public school, and drunk men at a park.
Worship in Manantiales; Photo by Colby Wayenberg
Community has played a big part in my life this month. I’ve realized the importance of having people around you who are committed to calling you higher. My team gives each other feedback, whether affirming or constructive, nearly every day. Sometimes our actions and reactions come from a place of hurt, blindness, or insecurity. We rely on each other to point out when we observe these behaviors and help discover the root of them. I’m learning how to speak truth with love, ask for what I need, and let the little things go. Our team goal is to develop a culture of sisterhood through going deep, lifting higher, and living loved. We also have specific steps to achieve these goals.
Distributing Food; Photo by Colby Wayenberg
I’ve spent a good deal of time this month thinking about the cultural consequences of short-term mission trips. Being white, a foreigner, and from the United States–do these things hurt or help our witness? I think it’s some of each, depending on the circumstances. During the next ten months, I don’t want to present myself as a savior, a perfect Christian, or something to strive for. I come with a humble spirit, ready to learn. I am honored to serve alongside long-term and native missionaries to support their efforts.
This mountainous city in Colombia called Medellin will always hold a piece of my heart. I hope to return here as soon as God allows.
