I realize that I wrote a blog a few days ago, but the Lord has showed out the past two days, and I can't keep silent.
After hearing SEVERAL times from alumni racers that I should begin listening to Jonathan David Helser, I FINALLY got a few of his CDs. On his newest album, there is a song called Abba. There's such power in the words of this song. Sitting in my room, I began meditating over the words of this song. As the music continued to play, I began reading scripture out loud. "The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship. And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.” Romans 8:15. As I continued to think on the words of the song and the very words of my Father, I fell to my knees, crying out for my Daddy.
As girls, we long to be captivating,pursued, and adored. "Adored" means "regarded with deep or rapturous love". There have been so many times in my life where I felt like I wasn't worth being pursued. The enemy has used scars from my past to make me believe that lie.
As Helser sang "You're more real than the ground I'm standing on. You're more real than the wind in my lungs. You're closer than the skin on my bones."
I so desperately wanted to know that I am worth pursuing, and that I am captivating.
As I sat there on my knees, my Father said, " I am HERE!." With tears streaming down my face, for the first time in my life my Father felt closer than the skin on my bones. Such intimacy with my Father.
As if that wasn't enough, the Lord decided he would remind me again today. Amongst the chaos of sitting in a cafeteria full of kindergarteners, the Lord made His presence so evident. As I sat at the table, the presence of the Lord overwhelmed me. I heard him say once again, " I AM HERE! "
I am slowly realizing that God is a God who is literally closer than the skin on my bones and the words on my tongue. He is IN ME. I don't have to cry out to God and beg him to draw near and meet with me in order for Him to be with me. God is not a God who leaves after I say "amen" at the end of a prayer. He's IN ME. He is ALWAYS with me.
Be encouraged!
