Unravel.
A word that God first brought to me as a whisper.
A word that initially had very little significance to me.
But a word that would change everything.
Unravel means to become undone. To tear down the existing. To get to the foundation. To let go.
Day by day, God started to speak it to me louder and louder until I could no longer ignore it.
Unravel.
I had my life together. In my mind, I had it all figured out. I had my own goals and my own dreams that I was restlessly striving after. I wanted to give my life to Jesus and yet I was so set on my own plan that I just wanted Him to come along with me. I was convinced that I was living for God as I was trying to build my own kingdom. Convinced that I was doing it for His glory while I was desperately seeking after my own.
It all must go.
Everything must go. Every part of the kingdom that you have built for yourself must be torn down. Every dream, every goal, every preexisting desire placed at the feet of Jesus. Until then, nothing will change for you. When everything, and I mean everything, has been torn down, then, and only then, will I be able to build you into what you were always meant to be.
These truths came to me like a flood and washed over my life in a way that I would never have expected.
I had no idea where I would even start with this. It seemed like an impossible task to lay down the very foundations of who I was and what I wanted.
But there, right there in that sentence, is where I found not only the base of myself, but also the base of my problem.
My very core was built on an idol instead of God, my desires were built on things I thought I could accomplish for myself and title I could achieve, and my value was built on the approval and praise of people that had no eternal significance.
That was my foundation.
I could no longer attempt to cover the walls of my own kingdom with Godliness while the very foundation was still built on sin.
I had to unravel.
Truly unravel.
Burn my kingdom to the ground until there was nothing left.
I want to come to the feet of Jesus with no pretenses, no biases, no agenda.
A blank canvas for His purpose.
Jesus demands everything, and that is what I am ready to give.
