If the World Race has done anything for me so far, it would have to be challenge my prayer life! I am seriously beyond the point of BLOWN AWAY at how much the Lord chooses to show me that He is hearing my every cry! Where too even begin… let me start with a quote that really challenged me this week!
"The deepest spiritual lessons are not learned by His letting us have our way in the end, but by making us wait, bearing with us in love and patience until we are able to honestly pray "Thy will be done"."
Ok one word… CONVICTING! I am a very much a planner of my future, one of the hardest things for me to do is NOT think about what the future holds and what I need to do to make it happen. So I have been deligently praying- more like pleading with my Saviour to let His will be done and for me to live a life with no control on the day. When I am the one driving the car I crash (you can ask anyone of my friends Im an aweful driver), but when God is driving me I can easily get to my destination safely! So hears the thing- I want His will, not just for the future though, I want/NEED His will over me now! I love missions, but it seriously breaks every part of my being when I see "missionaries" spending more time fundraising and such then they actually get to spend on the mission field. Whereever I am TODAY is my mission field- I know God's will for me is to be submerged in the minstry of where I am seated until He tells me to move. So here is the hard part…. When I decided to go on this World Race thing, the first thing I thought of was how in the world am I gonna raise $15,500? Tons of fundraisers and thoughts jumped into my head, but the more time I spent with Jesus He just shoved those thoughts out and took over. He did not want me to fundraise. He wanted me to be the passenger of the car and just listen to the driver. Then since He was driving and paying attention to the road he asked if I could disciple the people in the back seat. Being so occupied with those conversations that I did not even realize when the Lord stopped for the gas to fill up the tank. And just like that the finances have poured in without even one fundraiser!
I am not saying fundraisers are a bad thing, but what I am saying is that is not what the Lord has asked of me. He wants me to put all of my time and energy into the people I get to disciple dailey and He wants me to just sit and be amazed at how He provides the rest. Last Sunday I went and spoke at a church about Youth for Christ in Highlands County. After the fact a women I have never before seen came and placed a check in my hands and said that the Lord told her to give me this. I had not said a word that day about the World Race and yet she heard about me through the great vine. She had given $1000.00 to me. As I looked at the check the only thing I was capable of doing was lifting my hands, shouting to my Saviour, and apologize for all the times that I did not fully trust Him in my life. I can happily say that as of today with still eight months before the race I am 1/3 supported! WOW GOD, you are soooo good to me! He is good to all of us, and I challenge you to walk with Him in that step of faith dailey!
