"But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me."
-2 Corinthians 12:9
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This year's been quite the Marvel year of my life.
Through
Fear… Change… Failure.
Doubt,
More Change, more Fear and more Failures, and Doubts…
More Change, more Fear and more Failures, and Doubts…
Honestly, it seems as if I'm in this neverending comic book! You know, the one's where the Hero (in this case Heroine) is clueless of what they truely are, but are willing to risk it all for the sake of good!..
Where they find themselves in one battle after the other, facing a new and stronger opponent everytime.
In this case me,
Sometimes I catch myself stuck between the two roles of Hero and Nemesis.. constantly battling against myself not knowing which direction to pull.
Where they find themselves in one battle after the other, facing a new and stronger opponent everytime.
In this case me,
Sometimes I catch myself stuck between the two roles of Hero and Nemesis.. constantly battling against myself not knowing which direction to pull.
Or…
Which direction to go…
To go.. or.. not to go.
Honestly-No! HONESTY
Honesty is something I've always treasured and valued all my life.
The truth, the plain truth, nothing but the truth..
Well, here it is.
I've been battling with myself to whether or not this is what I must do. Where I must go.
I made the choice in April and was more than 125% sure that the WORLD RACE was where I needed to be.
Where God wanted me to be. Or should I say go.
I've been battling with myself to whether or not this is what I must do. Where I must go.
I made the choice in April and was more than 125% sure that the WORLD RACE was where I needed to be.
Where God wanted me to be. Or should I say go.
Somewhere along the way, I lost focus.
I found myself struggling financially, stressing out over the littlest things.
Crying all the time.
In short, I was emotionally unstable.
Then BAM!! God throws me a curve ball.
Without even seeing it coming I land flat on my face wondering why and how this had happened?!
I was originally on Squad O which will be launching within 35 days on January 7th (Shout out to all of you! I love you!). Unfortunately, I didn't meet the deadline and wasn't able to continue.
It really hurt… My biggest Fear… FAILURE.
And there it was, like a big stamp on my forehead. For the first time in my life, I truly Doubted.
Doubted not in myself, but in my God. (When I say Honesty, I mean HONESTY).
I found myself struggling financially, stressing out over the littlest things.
Crying all the time.
In short, I was emotionally unstable.
Then BAM!! God throws me a curve ball.
Without even seeing it coming I land flat on my face wondering why and how this had happened?!
I was originally on Squad O which will be launching within 35 days on January 7th (Shout out to all of you! I love you!). Unfortunately, I didn't meet the deadline and wasn't able to continue.
It really hurt… My biggest Fear… FAILURE.
And there it was, like a big stamp on my forehead. For the first time in my life, I truly Doubted.
Doubted not in myself, but in my God. (When I say Honesty, I mean HONESTY).
But in those moments… in those moments of weakness.. pity.. and doubt.
HE shows up.
HE always shows up.
HE shows up.
HE always shows up.
And, well…
Here I am. Like Batman, even after his aircraft had exploded with him inside he somehow always bounced back.
Ready for round 2 or 24 (who's counting?)
This time, I'm ready for anything and everything. Let his strength be my guide, and his love, my best friend 🙂
