Diving deeper,
This is how my month was in Nepal. So much happened I can’t put it all in words or on paper but I want to share a glimpse of it. As only the Lord could fill me up.
“O God, you are my God; I earnestly search for you. My soul thirsts for you; my whole body longs for you in this parched and weary land where there is no water.”
??Psalms? ?63:1? ?NLT??
Early mornings I called on the Lord and he heard me. I asked the Lord what to read or listen to. He often directed me to his promises. (His word) I would read the word and write them down. I got so much energy and encouragement by doing that. Some mornings I would sit there waiting for him to answer me. Soon I would hear music. I thought at first it was our host practicing for his concert. No, the Lord for real made songs play on my phone and it was exactly what I needed to hear. The Lord answers if you ask and believe.
This month was a lot about believing that what I ask he will answer if I seek first his kingdom as his word says in Matthew 6:28, Matthew 7:7-8
Here is a journal entry of another thing that I was just in awe about.
(“Thank you Father for answering my prayer this morning when I asked to not let it rain. It showed me how much you care, and favor me. Not only that it also opened my eyes in how much I don’t believe when I ask for things, I don’t trust you to actually come through”)
I was struggling a lot as my heart hurt for my team. We were being attacked big time with sickness, identity crisis etc. I often caught myself carrying the load instead of laying it at Jesus feet and trusting him with it. I had to guard my heart constantly. I had to choose to say “not today Satan” when he was telling me lies that it was because of how I was leading the team that was the reason our team is struggling. No, that is not what the Lord says and whatever that isn’t backed up with scripture it is not true. My daily battle was to tell myself of who I am in Christ.
With being a team of five we were blessed to have a squad leader with us so it made us six altogether. Sometimes only 3 ended up going to ministry. But still in that no matter the number we would still do our best. Satan was very mad at what was happening. So he tried in every way to destroy us but he couldn’t. “As greater is he living inside of me then he who is in the world.” We kept on being faithful and obedient to the Lord. Every day before we left for ministry we would pray asking the Lord to protect, lead, strengthen and guide us. It was only the Lords strength that energized us for the day.
Our ministry was building relationships with people and through that, plant a seed of hunger for righteousness. We entered places where the religion was Hindu and Buddhist. We were not allowed to share Jesus directly but through our actions of love they could see there is more out there.
We would also do prayer meetings. We would meet up with fellow brothers and sisters to Encourage them in their walk of faith. We would share bible verses, pray and listen to their stories . By the end of it all, I felt that they encouraged me more then I did them. It was encouraging to see how the Lord fills you right back up as you pour out. It’s like a fountain of living water that never runs dry.
This one day we hiked down a mountain side to share the word at a church. We hiked for hours. We were tired by the time we got to our destination. (Not to mention we needed to hike back up) We shared scriptures, testimonies and prayed over the sick. Then we started our hike back up the mountain. We had to encourage each other, lend a hand, remind each other to keep drinking water.
I love hiking and it took my mind back to my favorite place and that is Israel. It was hot, dry, rocky and steep but when we came upon a tree that gave shade it felt so good.
As I hike I meditate a lot and we were walking along a stream and it just reminded me that physically we need water. As we daily need the intake of water we also daily need the the living water by spending time daily and feasting from the bread of Life. (God’s word)
I will not run dry if I keep my focus on him. But the Lord will give more then that. He is our constant shade and living water that will never run dry.
We finally came to a rest to stop and eat to refresh ourselves to finish the hike. Then the last stretch was the hardest we had to run to catch the bus so we would not have to stay the night in the mountain. Our host ran ahead of us to stop the bus and he caught it within minutes. On our ride home I was thinking over the day and said, it is a day I will never forget. Pictures don’t do justice of the hiking. Words can’t describe how I felt. Then I was reminded again how blessed I am to be a daughter to a king who has created all of what I had seen and I get to be a part of his unfailing Love. I can have a relationship with my Heavenly Father that knows and understands when I don’t have words, actions or pictures to share. I can thank him for every breath that I breathe. He is the one who created me and he understands me best. He has created me so uniquely that He alone knows more about me than I ever will know about myself.
Nepal taught me so much.
. It strengthened my faith in the Lord.
. It made me more aware to always have a heart of gratitude.
. To know that it takes endurance and perseverance. Through our perseverance it’s not my own strength. It’s leaning on Jesus and let him be strong in my weakness.
. To put my expectations on Jesus and not on people.
Thank you so much for being patient with me as I slowly but surely share more of what I have been learning this year.
Thank you for supporting me.
Blessings on your journey.
