My people-
Man, God is so freakin good. I felt like I had hit the bottom. I was ready to give up. I didn't understand what God's purpose was behind this journey. It's like I was trying to find my way around the room wearing glasses that were fogged up.
What I had forgotten is that I don't stand on the known, I stand on the unknown. I was letting Satan win in an area that had already been conquered by my Lord Jesus. I was focusing on defeat, not victory. I let the flesh consume me and forgot how strong the spirit was inside of me.
Praise The Lord he surrounded me with amazing people who prayed for me and supported me in this time. Praise God he showed me that by losing control, I was letting him take over. In the midst of my confusion he was answering prayers.
This morning I read in 1 Peter how The Lord talks about "the passions of the flesh wage war against our soul." I had forgot in the midst of the battle that The Lord God had and would equip me. Sometimes Satan comes in disguises, tempting us with thoughts that seem "normal" like the desire to go home and give up. By not seeing it as Satan I didn't suit up but simply let my emotions take over.
God taught me an awesome lesson, Satan will always try to get me down as I continue to do work for the Kingdom. Satan will use anything, even thoughts that so easily come to mind and spin them out of control. He doesn't care about working in complex ways but is desperate to use anything to distract us from the Lord. It is key to stop those thoughts when they come. To proclaim victory over them in The Lord Jesus Christ and that our human emotions cannot control us!
Family and friends thank you for your love and support. I am standing on the rock and proclaiming victory over these thoughts. I am prepared for battle and The Lord constantly reminds me that he has equipped me and will continue to do so. I know more challenges are to come and God constantly reminds me to be on watch. This battle of the spirit is real and alive, I've never been more aware of it in my life.
I love you all so much and hope you learn from me, remember to suit up each day for Satan is always on the prowl to convince us we are less than our "inheritance" status. Like I keep saying, Satan can go back to hell where he came from!
Your fighting friend,
Ellie
