Hebrews 13:8
”Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.”
Even though we as individuals maybe changing our Lord is not. Everyone in some point of time goes through a type of change. Change can give you all different types of emotions such as: exciement, anxiety, worry, and so many more. Change can be easy for some people and difficult for others. The way we handle changes can define us as a person, but we should not allow it to. Everyone needs to deal with their change and accept that God‘s will is being done.
At first I was devastated and at lost for words for what had happened to my home, and did not want to feel anger or upset because I never wanted my emotions to get the best of me. Before Training Camp I was keeping all my emotions up tight and trying to be strong. But at Training Camp day two we were talking about testimony’s and how we need share ours. Well funny story, my trip was not fully funded when my house caught fire due to someone breaking in and robbing it… so basically I was short $1,060. Our family (my dad’s side) gathered for lunch to prayed over my family during this time and for everything in my trip to workout.,Well a few days later a staff member from my former high school (Robert E. Lee Academy) contacted me telling me that their church wanted to pay the rest of my trip… SAY WHAT!!?? Yeah it was totally crazy.
So after the message about testimony’s I got super emotional just thinking about how someone could do something so bad to our family and it wasn’t even the Devil. So I talked with a super super awesome staff advisor and they told me basically I had every right to be mad and frustrated. The staff member prayed over me and asked God to give me signs that everything back home was going to be okay and that I should not feel guilty about going. So later that day we had a session and during the session the song “I Could Only Imagine”, kept going through my brain. At first I was like what does that even mean… later that night it all clicked.
Okay, so basically people make jokes about “I’ll see you in Hell”, and honestly just trying to imagine that scares me so so so much. Like our home got completely destroyed by a fire in a few hours and it wasn’t even as hot as hell is!! CRAZY TO THINK… try wrapping your mind around that! Someone who wasn’t even the Devil did an act like this.. Imagine what the Devil could do to you or I. It is honestly crazy scary to me.
We all go through a time in our life where our faith is a little unsteady and that is when we need to fully rely on God (F.R.O.G). During these moments is when the Devil is trying to make our faith tremble. Even when the devil is doing this our GOD is doing things much much bigger.
Shortly after the fire our family was trying to get stuff situated, when my dad heard the song “Diamonds” by Hank Nelson come on. He sent the song to our family group chat and I was like “okay yeah God I see you big man”.. The song starts out “here and now I am in the fire in above my head, ” as the long song continues it talks about God’s timing will be refining. Amen. Amen. Amen. So through this God is going to take something that was not suppose to be in our life out. I am not sure of what that is but everything will soon be clear. Then the songs ending says “ ‘Cause He’s making diamonds out of dust”. So our dust and ashes that we think we have in our life will soon be turned into diamonds. THANK YOU JESUS.
Well later that day I was going somewhere alone in my car and the song “Mended” by Matthew West came on. This song starts with “how many times can one heart break”, honestly I felt an instant tug at my heart. You can begin to hear songs from a different point of view once something happens to you. In my thoughts everyone goes through a heart break (some more than others..) but as the song says , “lift your eyes to me, when you see broken beyond repair I see healing beyond belief” … “you see nothing but damaged goods I see something good in the making”. Like the words in that moment couldn’t have fit more perfect in my life. All that was left of our family’s beloved home (the place my dad called his home for over 40 years), were chimneys.. But our awesome God we serve has much bigger plans for my family. Fully Trust and Believe that.
Everyday we go through stuff that defines us as human beings. We may never understand why things happen to us, but we need to F.R.O.G and trust that everything is going to work out.
A side note from this//
My teammates are awesome. I am the only full southern person on my team besides one other person. Most of my teammates had never heard of Bojangles so while I was in the airport I bought everyone A Famous Bo Berry Biscuit, and I don’t think they disappointed. You can check out @ellendinkins_ on Instagram to see their reactions!
Anyways thank you for everyone who has been praying for my family and I during this time of unknown. The next 3 months I will be a walking testimony to the young children, teenagers, and adults. Please also lift all my teammates up in prayers as well!
THIS HAS BEEN A BLOG SEGMENT WITH ELLEN D., SIGNING OUT FOR NOW.
