Blogging. Something I have yet to master. This is a heads up that my thoughts may be presented in a sporadic, unorganized fashion. Bare with me, all you type A friends.
One of my friends asked why I haven’t blogged recently. She said she was waiting to hear what was going on in my noggin, because there had to be something! She was right, and I knew she was right. But selfishly, I did not want to share what was on my mind because it wasn’t fluffy, fun, uplifting stuff, which is my preferred style in just about everything. Nope, not this time. I was weighed down with an uncomfortable feeling of knowing I needed to share, but didn’t want to. Dang nabbit.
Knowing Jesus complicates things, in a wonderfully inconvenient way. You see, once you truly desire to know Jesus, there is no such thing as remaining the same. I’m learning with each day, usually trial and error. I feel as if it’s a bit along the lines of “Nice try, Ellen..maybe next time you’ll listen to me.. like I know you want to.. I’ll be here.. waiting for you…………….still here.. not going anywhere……“
Alright, getting to the point.. Hopefully I haven’t lost anyone yet.
If you know me, you know I like to meet new people. I like to tell stupid jokes. I like to laugh, a lot. I like to make silly faces. I like to see others smile. I like to please others.
Drum roll, please…..I need to stop pleasing others.
WOAH. WAIT. That doesn’t sound quite right. Let me explain. Of course we are called to love.. like every day, all day, every second (keep it up!) Wonderful things come from loving and pleasing those close to you. There is a point, however, when it is no longer healthy. I realized that I’ve allowed my need to please others to get in the way of what is most important. Which is? My relationship with my Father, who has been waiting on me to give up the control and spend more time with Him.. (Duh, Ellen)
What if they don’t like me? What if they figure out how flawed I am? (very) What if they chose to not love me? Ouch. What if talking about Jesus weirds them out? What if they let me down?
God will never leave me. He will always have my hand. I am promised His love and do not have to work for or earn His attention/presence. He is the only one that can quench the thirst for love and belonging, and boy does He provide in abundance. He has made it clear that it’s time I quit living for myself. He’s been far too patient with me.
It really does seem quite silly when I think about the amount of time I waste worrying about the worldly possessions and relationships. OF COURSE I STILL LOVE MY FRIENDS DEARLY, but the only relationship that will matter in 100 years is that with my Father.
So, I suppose this is where I say I love you all and if you don’t like me, that’s perfectly okay J
Serving Him who served us all – EKS
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A random joke for you, because why not.
“Would you like to hear a joke about pizza?…. wait for response…”Ughh, never mind, it’s too cheesy”
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More importantly, some verses for you to reflect on: Galatians 1:10 – Proverbs 29-25 – Matthew 6:1-6
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