When I first heard about The World Race, I was ecstatic. I have been doing missions trips since I was 7-years old and this one definitely caught my eye. I gleaned as much information as I could from a friend who is leaving this September on her race. What did I have to lose? I was a recent college graduate with no sense of what the next step looked like. I wasn’t ready for a career.
After applying for the January 2015 Route 2, the interview process began. They want to know everything about you. Even the things you may not want to admit to a complete stranger. I felt vulnerable and out of my comfort zone… and I wasn’t even talking to a person! I was simply writing in my answers to preset questions. But even that was a draining process and I worried that my skeletons would prevent me from being accepted.
However, I asked for prayer from friends and family during this process. And I also asked God for wisdom and comfort. He knows my past. He knows my skeletons. And yet He still loves me.
I knew that if this was something that God did not intend for me to do, He would close the door.
But, as you all know, I was accepted.
I could not have been more elated! And I probably would have done a happy dance right there on the grass where I was standing had I not been surrounded my old timer friends playing pickle-ball (yes I play).
It was also a humbling experience for me. I had doubted myself and thought myself unworthy. Yet God pointed out in that moment that even my failures do not stop Him from sending me where He wants me to go. He has plans for me. And He will make them known whether I am listening or not.
I am reminded of Proverbs 3:5-6
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.”
I am listening now, and I know that my trust needs to be fully in Him if I am to succeed.
There is a song by Caedmon’s Call that I think speaks to the doubt that we feel in ourselves sometimes and I would like to share it with you all.
It speaks of how God makes “robes from our rags” and how sometimes we don’t see our worth like God does, yet we need to trust in Him.
