Currently on the squad we are all obsessed with a personality test called the enneagram.
I decided to do it, and let me tell you I basically read the page about my life.
I am a REFORMER (one). A reformer is realistic, conscientious and principled. We strive to live up to our high ideals, or standards.
WHAT I LIKE ABOUT BEING A REFORMER:
I strive to be the best I can be so I can help bring out the best in other people.
Being dedicated to everything I do.
Having high standards and ethics.
Being self-disciplined and able to accomplish a great deal.
WHAT IVE STRUGGLED WITH FROM BEING A REFORMER:
Being disappointed with my self or others when MY expectations are not met that IVE put on others.
Thinking that what I do is never good enough.
Being upset because others are not trying as hard as I am.
Taking things too seriously.
*this is not to put my self and who I am in a box, but just to give you an outline of and words behind my feelings*
You’re probably wondering why trust has to do with enneagrams. The dictionary classifies trust as faith, confidence, training, exercised, practice. To me trust is being vulnerable, sharing or doing something for someone and trusting that they will not use what you have said or done against me. With me trusting people to do a job and they didn’t do it they broke my trust and me wanting to open up to them again. Overtime with thinking that others are not trying as hard as I am or doing what I want them to do I slowly lost my trust in the ones who loved me the most because I had my trust in othes not in my Father in heaven.
TRUST IN SCRIPTURE
– Proverbs 3:5 “TRUST the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding
– Jeremiah 17:7 “ But blessed is the one who TRUSTS in the Lord, who’s confidence is in him.”
– Psalm 56:3 “When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.”
– Isaiah 26:3 “You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.”
– Psalm 56:11 “in God I trust and am not afraid. What can man do to me?
What do all these scriptures have in common?
P U T T I N G O U R T R U S T I N T H E L O R D N O T O U R S E L V E S O R O T H E R S !
It says if we put our trust in HIM then what can man do to me, what are we to be afraid of, he will give us blessings and keep us in PERFECT PEACE.
If that’s not good news than I don’t know what is.
Throughout the reviling process God has been taking me through about putting my trust in Him he has brought up many things for me to reflect on and try to see Him within those circumstances and highlighted which areas of my life I need to give up to the Father and trust him to handle it for me.
These are the areas from above that God has been walking me through lately. Being disappointed with my self or others when MY expectations are not met that IVE put on others. Ive been learning more about that it is not my job to put my expectations on others because they are what I think would be right for them, however that might not be Gods plan for them. I need to trust God for when something doesn’t go my way or someone doesn’t do what ive asked of them that I am not in control of them, but God is. Trusting that Gods plan for them is so much bigger and better for their life. Thinking that what I do is never good enough. I am enough, I am good enough. By not thinking that I am good enough is going against God himself. In Genesis 1:27 “so God created mankind in HIS own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.” I need to give up the lies that what I do isn’t enough or goes unnoticed, because as long as I put my trust and obey what the Lord calls me to do he will keep me “in perfect peace.” (Isaiah 26:3).Being upset because others are not trying as hard as I am. OTHERS ARE NOT ME!
Plain and simple. I cant expect everyone to put the amount of effort I put into certain things. We each have our strengths and weaknesses and I need to trust the Lord that they are working harder at another task that I am not as good at. With all that being said I am still learning about what it looks like for me to be fully surrendered to the Lord and trusting His plan over my life.
My prayer request: to be able to fully surrender my life over to the Lord for its not even my life to have, its his already. I pray for my trust in the Lord to grow immensely so I can be able to have trust back in the people around me.
